Less than 32 hours

Less than 32 hours before 27 hours of journey.

Less than 32 hours of 8 hours of warmth hug and free kisses every night.

Less than 32 hours of tropical climate and everyday sunshine.

Less than 32 hours of home cooked meals.

Less than 32 hours of comfort life and bundle of love.

Less than 32 hours, I'll be starting a new chapter in my life at different side of the world.

Wish me luck!

Stress adalah perkataan hari ini

Stress kit daripada beberapa blog

Hari ini adalah hari yang stress bagi kami pasangan yang selalunya bahagia. Jarang sekali kami stress sekaligus. Biasanya saya akan stress sorang-sorang iaitu semasa saya bekerja atau en hubby akan stress sorang-sorang bila dia dah tension dengan assignment dan thesis. Walau bagaimanapun kami juga terasa stress jika salah seorang daripada kami stress, ye lah bak kata pepatah, cubit peha kanan, peha kiri terasa jugak.

Hari ini dimulakan dengan awal sekali. Pukul 6.50 pagi kami telah bertolak ke Embassi US untuk membuat visa. Saya dengan visa F-1 dan dia visa pelawat. Sebenarnya saya bercadang hendak buat visa F-2 (pasangan untuk F-1) tetapi apabila universiti minta penyata kewangan untuk setahun yang berjumlah RM25 000 dalam masa beberapa hari, bagaimanakah saya ingin mendapatkan itu. Jika kasi beberapa minggu pun mungkin tidak dapat. Oleh kerana en hubby hanya akan datang untuk sebulan sahaja buat masa ini maka kami membuat keputusan membuat visa pelawat sahaja dan F-2 akan difikirkan nanti pada tahun hadapan.

Oleh itu dengan bersemangat waja kami pun pergi temuduga di embasi itu. Nombor saya awal 1 daripada en hubby jadi saya dipanggil dahulu. Selepas menjawab beberapa soalan, visa saya diluluskan. Tetapi, saya baru tahu saya tidak membayar wang I-SEVIS yang bernilai $200. Tetapi saya dah bayar visa fee yang bernilai $130 + RM35. Mana la saya tahu kena bayar banyak sangat fee. Memang cekik darah betul la negara Pakcik Sam ni. Jadi orang embasi tu pulangkan balik pasport saya dan suruh menghantar kembali setelah membayar I-SEVIS itu. Nasib baik tidak perlu interview lagi.

Kemudian, suasana di ruang temuduga itu menjadi sepi seketika apabila ada seorang mamat ni ditolak permohonan dia. Apa yang diberitahu en hubby, penyataan si mamat ni berubah-ubah bila ditanya dan akhir sekali saya dengar orang embasi tu cakap, "Even with your blue tie couldn't save you. I will not approve your application. You can apply again later." Oh ya, ruang temuduga itu adalah berbentuk kaunter-kaunter yang dimana ada speaker yang agak kuat boleh kita dengar walaupun kita hanya menunggu. Tu la sebab semua orang boleh jadi pak sebok.

Apabila begitu terjadi, saya sudah menjadi cuak. Bagaimana kalau en hubby tidak dapat visa. Ini boleh melunturkan semangat saya. Kemudian no en hubby dipanggil. Nasib baik dia dapat orang yang sama dengan apa yang saya dapat. Setelah membaca borang permohonan, dia meminta surat nikah tapi en hubby memberi kad nikah kerana dia tidak bawa surat nikah (padahal saya bawa tapi dia tak tahu itu). Yang peliknya, orang embasi tu tahu pulak pasal kad nikah ini dan pandai pulak baca melayu. Selepas itu dia mengatakan bahawa en hubby sepatutnya mendapat F-2 bukan visa pelawat kerana dia pelajar. Tetiba dia teringat yang dia baru je temuduga saya dan menyuruh en hubby memanggil saya untuk ditemuduga sekali lagi. Dia meminta I-20 saya untuk menukar permohonan en hubby ke F-2. Tetapi mereka inginkan I-20 baru untuk en hubby. Ini hanya boleh dapat melalui universiti sahaja. Saya pun dengan muka selamba bertanya adakah penyata kewangan diperlukan? Dia menjawab tidak. Wah, hati berbunga riang.

Walau bagaimanapun, hati yang berbunga riang berubah menjadi gusar bak awan gelap. Saya menelefon universiti saya untuk meminta I-20 en hubby tapi seperti biasa, dia meminta penyata kewangan. Apabila saya kata orang embasi kata tak perlu, dia kata orang itu salah. Alahai....

Maka kami adalah stress dan en hubby lagi stress sampai tak oleh belajar untuk ujian dia esok. Keadaan begini menyebabkan saya terfikir untuk tidak pergi aje la. Kerana apakah erti hidup tanpa orang tercinta di sisi. Walaupun pun sekejap, yang penting dia mesti datang jugak.

Ada sesiapa nak pinjamkan RM25 000 supaya kami boleh buat penyata kewangan secepat mungkin?

Oh, bilakah penjual kereta itu ingin memberi wang jualan kereta supaya kami boleh buat penyata kewangan?

Tapi kalau kita tengok gelas separuh penuh, secara positifnya embasi telah meluluskan visa kami cuma tak dapat lagi je status seterusnya.

Dah la stress dengan visa, lepas tu banyak pulak perkara-perkara kecil tetapi boleh membawa stress berlaku dalam hari ini.

Now that you are gone...

She has gone. I couldn't believe she left me this fast. The goodbye seems so quick. We don't even take a proper picture together.

I thought they just wanted to meet you. How do I know they immediately took you away.

Now that you are gone, I started to miss you. There are so many things suddenly I wanted to do with you. It's like the time I'm with you was not enough. Who will come with me to lunch together. Who will go to Pavillion with me when I'm alone. We have so much bittersweet memories to let go. You were there when I was down, crying my heart out while driving crazily at Federal Highways, you were there when I was happy, during my courting years with my boyfriend, now husband and you were they during our wedding day loyally carrying all the wedding dresses and accessories.

We are best friends. We cursed each other sometimes, but no relationship is rainbow all the time right. But you always be there through shine and rain, hills and slopes. You never complained. If you do, you never made me felt so bad.

Well, for everything in this world there's no forever. Whatever start will end. We meet and we part. So are we. The last 4 years has been incredible journey with you. I will forever remember you. Thank you.

In memory of ....Me and my Gen-2...

2 great products

In the midst of preparing for a long journey and packing stuff for a year's need, I stumbled 2 great products. I'm not sure if this is new to some of the people, but to me I think these products are recommendable for others to use it.

Note: I did not get any incentive or any extra points for this free advertisement. Hehe.

First product: Vacuum bag

Where to buy: I bought it at Cosway shop. (yes, I joined the Cosway coz the shop was right under my apartment in hoping to gain extra pocket money, but my dream was crashed when the kakak at my office who was easily influenced by anything you sell resigned. Coz that's the only customer I had in mind beside my mom, of course. Hehe)

Ok, back to the product.

It can reduce space of your cabinet, closet or your lugagge. It vacuumed out all the air and leaving the bag becoming so thin which is around 1/3 of actually space taken. Actually I was sceptical about it, but since the price was cheap, I bought one to see if it's really work. And it works. Here some pictures of my experiment.

I used a small pillow as my experiment. (That's the nearest thing I can find while holding vacuum host.)

Top view of the pillow. Both pillow are the same size and thickness.

Side view of the pillow and the pillow in the vacuum bag. See the different? Cool huh.

Price: RM 7.90 for the size50 x 60 cm and RM 8.90 for the size of 80 x 60 cm

Difficulty of using it: It's so easy. Put your stuff in the bag, seal it and at the round socket, use your vacuum cleaner to suck the air out and voila, it's slowly becoming thinner and thinner.

Suitable for keeping clother, pillow and comforter. And if you have limited space in your lugagge, you can maximise it using this bag. And it's reusable. Not pakai-buang type.

Second product: Neck pillow

So what's so special about this neck pillow you might ask.

The answer is: Another additional support on top of the pillow.

Actually it's an usual blow-it-neck-pillow that you will find at any travel shop.
However, there are 4 things that worth mentioning:
1) it's cheap. At travel shop, it cost around RM 30 plus. But this one cost only RM8
2) it's washable as the outer clothes can be removed for washing.

3) when you remove the clothes, it become a plastic neck pillow that you can use in your bathtub or swimming pool.

When you remove the clothes, pillow has the pelampung kind of material.

4) there's a small additional thing that makes the head felt more comfortable.

See how comfortable it is?

The normal neck pillow. See how not comfortable when you lean your head backward?

Where to buy: I bought it at Carrefour, Alamanda.


Cool huh this 2 products. Something that worth sharing info with.

Not wanted

"It's ok, you'll be gone soon."

It's like someone stabbed my heart and moved the dagger around it and minced every cells that form my beating heart. That one sentence hurt so much even an ocean of tears will never justify that feeling.

It's as if my existence only bring misery to others.

Ok, I'm going off soon and I won't be in your way.

Gen-2 for Sale

I don't know how to put this but I'm selling my car!! It's so sad as she has been very faithful and understanding car (what I mean by understanding was she knew when to have punctured tire - when I received by bonuses). So I took this opportunity to advertise at my blog that probably read by less than 5 people. Ahaks... but if these 5 people spread the word to another 5 people, then it would be 10 and the rest you do the maths.

Anyway, the details of the car are as below:

Manufactured: November 2004 but have low mileage, only travel around 65000 km in 4 years!
Engine: Campro 1.6 Automatic
Condition: Very good. Religiously serviced and changed whatever need every 5000 km or 3 months or whichever come first.
Accident: Never had any major accident. No insurance claimed before.
Interior: Very clean as I don't have any children. So the seat is very clean.
Additional info:
1) I've replaced the reverse sensor with new one. It come with small monitor that showed how far is the object behind your care. Please refer to the picture below. It's very useful and very dependable.
2) All the windows were tinted with V-Kool. So you don't have tinted it anymore and it's trap heat and make the car cool inside.

The front view

The back view

The interior view

The location of reverse sensor monitor and the monitor show the distance between the object and the car.

Have very nice plat number. I blacken the alphabet part scaring some psycho will follow me. If you want to know and you are a serious buyer, please email me. Btw, did you know that 5566 (wu wu liu liu) is a Taiwanese band's name? Cool ha.

Low mileage... I'm the type who stay-at-home gal and ride other's car. hehe

Note: Even though many people thinks that women driver didn't know how to take care of the car, I, even though not an expert in cars, know a bit about it and as stated before religiously serviced and take to the workshop if anything feel and sound weird. Furthermore, I have a husband who always make sure that this car in tip-top condition.

Oh yes, reason for selling: Will going off to further study.

Price: RM 31 000.00

Please contact me at munmzzz[at]gmail.com
Only serious buyer please...

3 Choices

Choices. Yes, we made a lot of it in our life. From the simplest choice of what shoes you want to wear today to the hardest choice of who will you be married. The harder the choice the longer times taken to make the decision.

Right now I have to make a decision from 3 choices.

Choice 1: Received first. Therefore I'm so excited and lead to next big decision, resigned from work. I thought this was the only choice and started contacting all the relevant people. The pros: a lot of Malaysian here. Even my ex-schoolmate is here and I already contacted him. My close friend in UM only few hours from here. The cons: It's not what my sponsor want according to the early mention. The course outline was not clear too.




Choice 2: Unexpected. Especially when previously I did a preliminary qualification questions and they send an email stated that I most likely I'm not going to get it due to low GRE verbal marks. The pros: Top rated place. The course is very comprehensive. I can choose many area to be specialize in. Top Biomed Eng Program in the country. The cons: Hardly any Malaysian there. In fact only few which is doing Ph.D. Located in suburban area. Takde snow banyak sangat (penting ke? hehe)



Choice 3: I heart this. At first. Then during the application, they made macam-macam request, I thought maybe they didn't want me (since I applied after the deadline) and they just want to entertain me and keep my hope high. The Pros: Unexpectedly I received this with additional cherry on top - an extra money straight to my aacount. Many Malaysians there too. Located in the city. Another top rated place and many Malaysians actually recognize this rather than Choice 2. The cons: Late result means that I already made my decision. The course choice to specialize not as intresting as Choice 2.


After thinking carefully on which area actually I wanted to specialize and what my goal actually, decided to take Choice 2. Even though with that confident choice, I still has doubt and when I receive letters from my sponsor, then I knew it that Choice 2 is the place I'm going to be at least for the next 1.5 years.

Hope my choice is the best one and will bring me success in the future spiritually, mentally, physically and socially.

But still. Takut.

I love Pavillion

I love going to Pavillion, KL, for these reasons:

1. It's easy to get parking; since the parking rate is expensive, I think other people park elsewhere.
2. It's calm, quiet and no children running around. Since most of the shops are the high-end and expensive, so not many people come here. So that's explain the calmness.
3. Since the shops sell all the ridiculously expensive clothes, bags etc, I don't buy anything when I went there.
4. I save money on not buying anything.
5. Yet, in my heart I promised one day I'll buy a Coach handbag for myself (the original one of course). Maybe I should bought it in States, they said it's cheaper there.
6. Yet, I whispered to my hubby 'Tiffany & Co if you want to buy me gifts'. Never mind Mikimoto, I prefer diamonds to pearls. Hehe
   
7. Surely it brings out the materialistic aspect of my soul. Scary... (well, not scary enough if you really know me... HAHA)
   
8. Oh, I like it's toilet. Still using the usual Malaysia toilet with water but still maintained the superclean. (Maybe because few people actually use the toilet that make it clean).
9. The GSC has big leg room.
   
10. And of course, the first first spa;Kenko started here. Then suddenly at pasar malam pun ada fish spa. (oh kaki sape ni la ni yg ikan suka sangat makan ni? hehehhhe... hint: not me!)
11. Oh, every time I came here, Tangs having a huge sale. With additional reduction. And every time I came here I'll be fooled by 'Oh my God the handbag is so pretty and it's 70% off... and oh, the original price is RM2450. Never mind'. Every time.
12. Last but not least, there's J.Co here. I will definitely buy J.Co every time I come here (just to show that I actually bought something and my trip was not wasted).
13. And lastly (I promise this is the last one), there's the handsome Bangla that sell western food in the food court. Hahahahhahahaha....
    

Our little boy got castrated

We send out little boy for a castration yesterday. It was a tough decision to be made. He was alone so without castration would not cause any problem. But since he has become perosak his own room, we made decision to neuter him in order to reduce his aggressiveness. Not that he was an aggressive rabbit, in fact he was adorable but then lately he has become a bit naughty.

So after researching and asking around, we found out that this is the best clinic to castrate Choki: Heshmael's Clinic for Pets Sdn Bdn which located at Sunway Damanasara. So yesterday we went there to send him. After filling the forms, we met the doctor. Dr Hasnul was nice and knowledgeable in rabbit. It's hard to find a vet that also specialize in rabbit coz most of the vet are specialize in cats and dogs. So when he telling and informing stuff about rabbit, we were happy about it. And he looked soft too, so we hope he's not so rough with Choki.

During the examination, our little boy behaved in a way that made parents proud. He didn't run around, just sniffing away in his usual way and when the doctor checked him, he obeyed and didn't repulse. I was so proud of him. Furthermore when the doctor checked his teeth and he's ears, he looked fine. The doctor even asked if we always bath him. Well, we never bath him at all and he still looked clean and cute. Hehe. We just put some powder to him but not bathing him. I don't think we can bath a rabbit.

So when everything was fine, we left him with the doctor. Few hours after that, during eating at Ikea, the nurse called and informed that the operation was done and he's ok. We were so relieved. At that moment, I felt like going back to the clinic to bring him home. But we already promised the nurse to take Choki today. Just to let him recover at the clinic. That's what good about that clinic that they called you to inform the progress of your pet. So that you won't worry about your pet.

So today we went fetching our little boy. He was quiet all the way home and he sat near to the door as if he wanted to sit near us. But the whole day he ate quite a little compared before. Even when we gave him his favorite food, pear, he didn't want it. Sangat merisaukan la.

We scared he bit the stitching area so we were trying put the e-collar to him but he harden his neck to make it impossible to wear the collar. Since he don't want to wear, we just leave him that way la. Macam-macam la.

Hopefully he's appetite improve tomorrow and he can jump around like always.

What your handwriting tell about you?

Zainal bought this one book: Sex, Lies & Handwriting by Michelle Dresbold. I thought I've read books about handwriting before and I wasn't interested to read this one. But then I realized I only knew few aspects of the handwriting so basically I didn't know much. So not wanted feeling left behind, I read this book too. It's funny how 2 people reading the same book at the same time. When he's not reading, I reading it. When I'm watching tv, he's reading it.

Since the writer is working with the FBI solving murders, ransom and all that stuff, her example mostly on the killers especially the famous ones like Jack the Ripper, Ted Bundy, Son of Sam and some others more (if you like to read these infamous murders like me you'll fimiliar with these people... hehe). She showed how to identify if the person have the tendency to love death and how he perceived others. The example was easy and it's very interesting to read.

However, the problem is now after writing something, I started to analyze my own handwriting. What I've noticed that my handwriting showed that I can't keep secret. Hmmm... might be right at some point. Hehe. Then I started to find back all the cards that people gave me during my wedding and started analysing. Oh, we also plan to analyze the 'ucapan untuk pengantin' that we done during the reception to get more sample.

It's very intresting to know a person by his handwriting because a person couldn't be lying in his handwriting because what the person really is can be mirrorred in his handwriting. That's the beauty of it. For example, signature can be a jugde a person tendency for something. Like this one, Osama Bin Laden signature on a letter he wrote after 9-11, (not sure betul ke tak, but this is what the example gave la...) , what can you see? It looks like a rifle and a hand grenade right.Another want is Charles Manson, a killer. Can you see that his signature has a swastika in it? Scary huh.
So what you like would intentially or unintentially written in your signature. And how you feel can be seen in your handwriting. Did you know that Elvis Presley signature and handwriting were different? In this signature, he wanted people to see him as another person - the person that we adored but his handwriting showed the real him.

Nevertheless, this is not to judge a person and put a label to them before you know them but it's just a precaution to oneself on what you might be dealing with.

The next day after the last day

I believed that when Allah gives you pain and sickness, He' trying to test your patience and Iman. And of course if you be patient, dosa-dosa kecil akan diampun... betul tak? Correct me if I'm wrong.

That's why, the day after my last day at my work, I'm down with high fever. It was so hot that I think my organs were burning. Then I remember my mom used to say that never let the temperature gone so high as I has history of seizure during high fever. But that was 20 years ago, I wondered if it can happen when you are already an adult.

After the fever has residing, I started coughing and what I've feared finally become reality. An asthma. Luckily it was not that bad comparing the childhood asthma. This one it's was the just the intro part but I still need to use nebulizer. What's worse, I couldn't sleep with my hubby since the fan in the room suffocating me. So I slept at the couch in front the tv in living room. Sedey betul...

Lastly, the gastric wanted to join the fun and added the pain. It was the horrible. It become worsen when I coughed.

I guess I've done many sins in my company that after I left it, Allah wanted me to cleanse all the sins and tested me with all this disease. Takpe la... I've met almost all the people in the company before I went back that day to say sorry and stuff. Even my boss. Hehe...

I wish the phlegm will go away and I'll be totally in good health again before this weekend coz Zainal has planned a lot of thing to be done this weekend.

Hiatus

Lots thing happened. Just that I'm not feeling well to compose a readable post.. (alasan..hehe)...

Will be right back when feeling better.

Our first raya together

I can't believe that I have to go to work tomorrow after a 9 days of holiday. Sungguh malasnye...

Time flies so fast when you having fun, right. So how's your Raya? My raya was as usual except that this time, I didn't need to sneak out to call someone on Raya's night at my grandma house. Coz this time, that person was with me all the time... =)

The raya mood started a day before raya when we drove to Muar with my parents and Naqib. The road was surprisingly clear and no traffic jam until we arrived at my Atuk's house. After freshen up we decided to tour the Muar bandar for the sake of wasting time and petrol. So Naqib & I become unofficial tour guide for Zainal as this was the first time he came to Muar. From my dad's high school to the big durian, everything was showed to him. Hehe.

When we came back home, we decided to help my mom collecting duku while waiting for berbuka time. This was my first experience and to tell the truth, I didn't know there's a lot of duku trees behind atuk's house. Furthermore, it was full of ripe duku. We managed to collect full basket from few branches of one tree only. But the worse part of it was that mosquitoes were having a feast with my blood and not forgetting ants were crawling all over my body as if I was their highway. God, that was awful.

Bertungkus lumus...

Raya morning was filled with usual routine: Sembahyang sunat raya, giving duit raya session and followed by photographed session. This time, the increasing DSLR camera was observed during the last session. Adakah semua cousinku ingin menjadi photographer. At least there's no weird photo taking action from photographer itself like last year. Hehe..

Our first raya together

My nucleus family

The cousins & atuk

I tried to absorb and feel as much as I could on the sights, sound and smell of this raya. I might not enjoy it next year coz most probably I won't be in this country to celebrate. Gonna miss this routine so much though.

Oh, this is the first raya I don't get any duit raya. Last raya was the last one as people still confused if I have worked or not. But this time, when there's a hubby next to you, there's no way you can join the long queue. Oh ya, Pak Sham still give a kesian duit raya to me and Zainal though. Hehe...

Upon arriving KL, the whole raya mood has just dispersed away. Zainal & I went 'beraya' with fishes and reptiles at Aquaria KLCC on second raya and watched 'Kami'. Personal warning: If you don't follow the episodes of Kami, you might not understand the whole story of that movie.

Shark... Grrrrr...

Yeah, I'm having a great time this raya with my family. Too bad tomorrow I have to face my works again.

Salam Aidil Fitri

To all my friends....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri

Maaf Zahir & Batin

Drive safely, eat slowly and forgive everybody

Show me some light please

Sometimes I felt that he didn't want me to go to US. He seems like he's not supporting me. However, sometimes he does look excited. Seriously he made me confused.

I really don't know what to feel right now. I felt excited and happy to further my study as I was my dream since after SPM. (God knows how I felt when I discovered I couldn't study oversea even though my result was better than my friends that could fly away. Crushed to pieces). But on the other side, I felt scared coz I never been alone, I felt guilty for leaving him for few months and I'm confused about his permission. If he doesn't allow me to go, then I'm not going. But I'm not going to work and I want to study art. Haha... No, seriously.

Because of this negative feeling is more dominant than the positive feeling, I kind of scared to proceed to next step. I also spend more time finding on how to make him join me than I'm searching for my preparation. I don't mind spending all my money and resources to make him come and be with me when the time is right. I believe it would be the best thing would ever happen to us. Amin and InsyaAllah.

At this moment, I don't know what to do. If only he showed some excitement, then I'll be in peace at least for awhile. I don't want to be like P. Ramlee and Azizah:

"Kerana cita-cita, ku korbankan cinta."

Me & 1000 diseases

I was so close to try on something that I studied and memorized on how it function and all that stuff. During clinical engineering, I've seen that thing and amazed how on earth the inventor of this thing can actually thought of doing this. But of course, not every hospital has this and being a chance to use it would be an experience not to be missed. The machine is MRI.

But then my dream suddenly was squashed by the voice of the love of my life.

"Doctor, it is possible that this pain due to stress from work? Because when she stress, the pain worsen."

And the doctor innocently answered, "Yup, it's possible. I think that's the reason. Btw, how's your working condition?"

Me, "Mumble, mumble, mumble."

Doctor, "That's why you always have pain in this area.... bla...bla...bla... Why don't we try physiotherapy first. If not working, then only we scan. Ok?"

Me, "Mumble, mumble... okkkkk."

There you go. I've missed a chance to get scanned by 3.0 Tesla MRI which supposely to be the first in South East Asia. (I'm not sure it's true, but the hospital claimed it and me being ignorant about the medical technology since I join pharmaceutical, I believe it's true la). I really want to see how the image of my body using that machine. I know it would not find anything abnormal but just want to make sure right...

But by the treatment of physiotherapy I received this time, I don't think this pain will go away. This pain is taking away the sweetness of one activity that I love so much.... sleeping...

That melancholy feeling again

I thought of not going to the buka puasa event organised by my boss's boss , Mr SM. I was tired and sleepy coz I've been sleeping less than 5 hours for 2 nights in the row now. All I want to do was go home and rest. Suddenly my phone rang and my colleague asked my whereabouts. After assuring her that I'll be there soon, I realized I have to make it despite my sleepiness.

Along the way, with maps (yup, 2 maps) at the steering wheel, I confidently drove there. Then I realized there's a Persona following for quite some time. Behind that Persona, there's a Myvi that I believed was owned by one of my 6 Sigma gangs. Oh, now I realized that there's 3 cars that actually following me which was all of them were my colleagues. Funnily, they didn't know that I was depending on the maps to get there but since they trusted me, they followed me all the way even though I turned to the wrong exit. Hehe.

During the whole buka puasa event, I realized that my 2 years existence does have an impact to this company. Mr SM even asked me if there's any chances I will take back my resignation notice. Well, so far, I'm very happy to leave this job, thank you.

I realized that I've been so negative about this place that I thought nobody care if I'm there or not. But then I finally realized that the only person that I really hate is my boss-from-hell. Despite sometimes I get annoyed with department that I'm supposed to support, but in reality they are nice people. The annoying time only come during either I'm having PMS or they having PMS. Most of time I enjoyed chatting and laughing with them while I'm trying to make sure they follow the procedure especially during technology transfer. In conclusion they are nice people trying to do their job.

Somehow, these past 2 weeks, our department has moved downstairs and I purposely request to be sat away from the boss-from-hell. To tell the truth, first time in 2 years, I felt serenity and calm. Hehe... I don't need aromatherapy or jasmine tea to calm me down. He's the reason I'm going and for now I'm still not sure is this is the best path I ever take in my life or the opposite. I hope everything turns out well. InsyaAllah.

I'm going to miss this place so much than I ever think I could.

And for the first time

To tell the truth, I've written few posts that hang in the middle due to 1) distraction from somebody 2) sudden writer's block disease. Hehe...

After 11 years of formal education from Ministry of Education, I finally can only relate, understand and remember the Malaysian history through 5 days BTN rather than that 11 years of countless exams and numerous text and revision books. That shows that if the topic is something that related to us not only in the past but also in the future significantly, it's easier to grasp rather than you learn in for the sake of exams.

So therefore, after 25 years of living, now I really understand why it's important to be who I am really are, to maintain that status and to be proud of what I was born with. And for the first time ever, I'm kind of interested to read history voluntarily. Hehe. Cuma tak beli lagi je buku tu.

Then, I finally send my resignation tender to my boss. That's happened 4 days before Malaysan 51th Merdeka Day. And for the first time I really appreciated Merdeka Day for that obvious reason. But still not satisfied with that boss-from-hell. Let's shit about it next time kay. Huhu.

We celebrated Merdeka Day at Sunway Resort Suite hoping to catch firework but dissapointed that Sunway doesn't have any firework this year unlike previous years. I think this is the first year they didn't have firework. Bengang betul. So we when to MPH Warehouse Sale in the afternoon. And for the first time, I only bought one chic lit written by one of my favourite chic lit writer; Isabel Wolff. She's not as famous as Sophie Kinsella but I like her book. The rest of the purchase were non-fictional reading about works, relationship and world which is an advancement for me. I hope I read all of that. Not as book shelf decorator to look intelligent. Hehe.

And for the first time I celebrated Ramadhan as a wife. No more wake up for sahur just to eat. I need to prepare, reheat and clean up. Those days, if my mom woke me up before the table was ready, I would be really pissed. But now, I did that, memang tak sahur la. Thank God I have a husband who help me in everything. =) (Ayat pujian yang ikhlas untuk mendapatkan kasut raya)

Just now, I won the best speaker for impromptu speaking during Presentation Skills training. Unexpected weh. But something to boost my excitement to work in that company while waiting for 2 months to be over. Oleh itu, adalah sangat gembira....=). For that moment, I think if I have a chance in the future, I would like to be a toastmaster too. Macam interesting je...

Oh ya, if you happened to stay around Bandar Baru Bangi or you are looking for delicious ayam golek, there's a ayam golek stall near Seksyen 7 primary school that sell delicious ayam golek. Seriously. Sedap giler...

Wedding and more weddings

Early next month will start the fasting month of Ramadhan. This means the wedding season will take a pause for a while. 2008 has been the most wedding I've been. So today was the last wedding I had attended before Ramadhan.

Interestingly, today was one of the most memorable wedding. It's the wedding of Ain & Amri. Both of them I knew since secondary school. They have same love story like mine except for few details. Like us, they knew each other since secondary school but only in latter years they become a couple. Ain is one of my closest friend and I'm very happy for them.

What interesting about this wedding that the bride & groom arrived in boat. They made it at Taman Botani Putrajaya beside the lake. Personally I think it's a very beautiful venue. Even though it was a very hot afternoon, but the wind and trees made it bearable. The fun part was that at the end of the day, Ain threw her flower bouquet to us. It's supposed to be for only single girls but it seems that everybody wanted to catch it and all tak malu guys and married girls pun sibuk sibuk. And guess who catch that bouquet? Not me, silly. I'm married remember.

It's Zainal. Yes, my Zainal. My dearest husband.

Can you believe that? Do you think is his subconscious mind that he wanted to marry again? hahaha... okay that was very negative thinking. I know he loves me only, right sayang. Just because that flower dropped at you, you will get married right. But on the safer side, I've asked all the Al-Amin there to take care of him, if they see anything suspicious, please contact me ASAP. Haha... just kidding sayang... I trust you okay...

Okay, let's recap the weddings...

January:

Mas & Odie4/7 of these lovely ladies already married by now. FYI, all 7 were not yet married during this picture was taken.

Of course moi married in January also.

Then,

in May:

Nadhirah & Faka

in June

Faraha & Zul

For the first time I become a pengapit and I think it would be the last time.

in July

Syarah & her husband... for the first time I was not in any picture in this wedding.

Me & Zainal - the reception

Lisa & her husband... we have to go back by just after the bride & groom arrived. So no picture.

in August

Ain & Amri

Coming soon would be Hidayah in October.

While few Pharmaniaga friends like Ida, Niza, Sazani & Imran. (I only went to Niza, the others are quite far to go).

And also few engagements like Fadli, Liya & Mai.

Wow... the Subang girls really love 2008 right. So hopefully in 2009 & 2010 would be the guys turn.

Ps: If you see Zainal in anywhere with a girl with a radius of 0.1 m around him, please contact me ASAP kay.... hehe....

Till the end of our life... not till anak cucu

During my reception last month, I wanted to use the wedding guest book given by Suraya and Liyana during my akad nikah. But after long thinking, it wasn't the best idea coz 1) the main entrance might become congested due to people who's going to write in that book and 2) number of people who wrote might be less coz lazy to queue and wait. So I come out with this idea. I put a small card in each guest place and 2 pens in each table for them to write at their own time during the reception.

After the reception over, my family would collect all the card. Although we didn't get the same amount on the guest number, but the cards were almost 300 has been collected. I think there's no other wedding did this right? Hmm... as far as I've attended la.

The next day, we would read together. It was fun actually. Mostly the wish was usual 'semoga bahagia hingga anak cucu'. Some drew pictures, my cousins took this opportunity to show their talent in manga and promote themselves. Some give witty advices like ' let the wife makes big decisions and let the husband makes major decisions' and some others I can't remember. Some were shy to put their names and just said from Hamba Allah. Some table were so lazy, they combine the whole table name in one card. The proud RMC Old Puteras proudly put OP in front of their name. One of our friend even mention about the slide show I bermati-matian prepared and one would like to give Choki a girlfriend.

Ok, that's not my main point. The main point is why people like to say bahagia sampai anak cucu. Why anak cucu only? After that are they not happy anymore. I don't want that. I want sehingga akhir hayat. With today's medical advancement, human lives longer. Like my grandma, she still lives to see her cicit. That's why, when you pray (wishes is a kind of prayer from you) please say until end of their life.

Furthermore, nowadays, if you notice, divorce among couple who has been married for more than 20 years has risen. I don't know why but this is serious is my opinion. What happened if you have seen your parents being together for all your 25 years alive, and suddenly decided they don't happy and don't want to be together anymore. It's sad right. I couldn't imagine thing like that happen to me. That's why, I don't want bahagia sehingga anak cucu, but until the end of my life; either 85 years old or 45 years old, I don't care.

I always take people wishes seriously because their wishes are their prayer for us. If 40 people pray for our happiness, somehow Allah will granted the prayer right. What people said la. So imagine if 300 people wishes happiness until of your life, surely, God granted you love and happiness in your heart even in toughest moment of your life.

So since the wedding session is coming during this school holiday, please wish the newlyweds happiness with each other until the end of their life. 'Semoga jodoh berkekalan' tapi tak bahagia pun takde gunanya juga.

Awana Kijal trip

Last weekend we went to Awana Kijal, Terengganu to have a short break. We have to send Choki first to his birth place for 2 nights stay before having a lunch at a delicious restaurant, Leha Kelfood which is on the way to the Karak Highway, before you enter the highway to Genting I think. The ayam percik and ikan bakar was very nice and they have so many lauk-pauk to choose from.

The journey was roughly around 4 hours. After the east coast highway, we supposed to go to Kemaman but instead we turned to Jabor. Thank God for Zainal's GPS, we managed to find the way without the need to U-turn. But the thing about GPS is, it gives you the way regardless what road it is. Like that day, GPS led us through the one way Felda road which was unbelievably uneven and wavy. I felt like we were in a rally race. But it was interesting.

We arrived there around 5.30pm. Since we used timeshare, they gave us a 2-room apartment. It was nice apartment but a bit far from the main hotel (just across the parking lot lar). But just the 2 of us in that 2 rooms apartment is a waste la. But ape gunanya honeymoon jika invite orang lain in sharing apartement with us kan. What good about this hotel that, just outside the area, there's a row of shops and restaurant that you can try. So you don't have to fork out a lots of money to eat in the hotel. Hehe....

On Sunday we swam from morning to afternoon, rest for a while and continue in the evening. The hotel very big swimming pool with separate kids area and even has 2 jacuzzi area which was so wonderful to soak and be happy. Hehe. We planned to rent the ATV but fate not on our side when the ATV broke down after 7 minutes of riding it. I didn't have the chance to drove it. Jadi penumpang je.... So the operator gave back our money. At least we got to ride it for free. Actually we want to ride along the beach. This hotel has very long private beach and it was well taken off. However, being in the east coast, you know how the waves are, very rough and big. So we only managed to swim very near to the beach and after few minutes, my body hurt and become very tired fighting with the waves.

While waiting the operator to save us.... ambil la gambar dulu

What interesting was that I bought a water resistant camera bag - Aquapac few months ago. Actually bought that for Phuket trip but the trip was canceled so I never use it. So this time, we were like camera-whore. Every stunt in the water will be followed with a photo shoot. It was a good buy. After this, I don't have to worry about water ruining the camera. Furthermore, I don't need to buy the water-resistant camera just for this purpose. Isn't it wonderful? Hehe...

Makhluk air di dasar kolam

That night we booked a fireflies watching trip at a nearby village. We with few others Mat Salleh excitedly in the van when the driver received a call that there was thunderstorm and raining heavily at that village. As soon as he announced the trip was canceled, the rain started to pour heavily at the hotel. I guess that day wasn't a lucky day for us.

Disappointed can't watch the fireflies... so ambil gambar dengan lampu lobby hotel je la..

So on Monday we head back to our beloved home. But of course when you are in Terengganu what is the most important thing to buy? Keropok lekor. I bought a total of RM10 of it and 4 packets of keropok biasa tu... Wah... so happy to get Terengganu's keropok lekor.

2 happy bunnies

After arriving Kajang, we have durian feast. Memang best la... Wish we can go holiday like this often...

He's mine

I have my own Hugo Boss model...
And he's sleeping with me every night.
Jangan jealous ye.... haha...

My mind has been set

To tell the truth, I won't take any shit from him anymore. I have made up my mind. Mid of this month or more precisely after my 4th stage of 6 Sigma training, I'm sending the letter. After from being his dog for almost 2 years and now his black sheep (shit), I'm going to leave. I've done the best I can to maintain the department's name. Covering him up and make sure others would not look down to us. Now, when suddenly there's a crowd in the department, I become the black shit when he's actually the black shit of the company.

Dear people, if you want to become a manager, please equip yourself with managerial knowledge. If your technical knowledge is above everyone, fine. But no point if your managerial knowledge worse than a clerk. Even a clerk can plan better than you.

My future is still not 100% certain. I'm halfway through there but there's still doubt and what if. But it's ok, we still can live. Anyhow I need to work hard to make sure it will come true.

It just felt so relieved when the wedding reception is over. At the same time, a day before the reception, my doctor said I don't have to go to physiotherapy anymore. Yeay... I like going there coz I felt better after that and I can skip work for half a day but the medical centre was very far and the petrol price would burn my pocket even worst. But I still have a personal physiotherapist at home aka hubby yang malang. So right now, 2 problems down, 3 more to go.

Oh, another problem has turned to something I actually enjoy plak. It is 6 Sigma. The only time I'm so happy in my working life is during training and coaching. Despite being the only few executives among managers and senior managers, I was treated equally. They make me felt that I'm a part of the team. In my company, managers and senior managers wouldn't even want to sit with you. They act like they are holier than us. Benci. Furthermore, the friends that have together are fun and love to gossip too. Huhu..

It is the perfect time to be calm coz tomorrow we are going a road trip to Terengganu... 3 days at the beach... total relaxation and second, no, third, ok, cannot-remember-what-the-number honeymoon. Ya, kami kaki jalan.

Wedding Reception, finally

I would like to thank all my dear family members, all my friends and all my colleagues for coming to my reception held last night. Can't thank you enough.... Here are some sneak peek of what happen last night.

Photos credit to Kak Mala, Pharmaniaga's own photographer (thank you very much!!)... more photos from her fotopages.

So many things

4 more days to go...

So many things to be taken of for the reception (dentist, wish card, flowers).

So many things to be done that does not have any relation with reception yet important to my career (6 sigma, KPIs, mid-year review), future (master's) and health (physiotherapy).

Why everything happen at the same time?

Pengsan.

The Wedding Reception part 1

There’s so much things happened at the same time and need the same amount of attention. I don’t want to summarize everything in one post which can become very confusing at the end. Let’s start something that don’t need so much attention or should I say less job on my part. The wedding reception.

Yes, I’ve been married more than 5 months now but we haven’t done the wedding reception yet. So we have decided to do it on 19^th July 2008. Thank God, mak has been the best project manager and ensure everything ok. My part was quite small even though I’m the main character in this wedding ( with my co-star Zainal of course). I have to order the invitation cards. It was ok but there are few problems at the delivery and unnoticed mistake in the card (like my email address. Just hope nobody email me. Hehe).

I was also supposed to send the invitation to my friends but getting everybody’s address is a challenging task as most of the people change their handphone number like changing clothes. This is the disadvantage of selling cheap sim cards. Thank God for friendster and email, some people still can be contact, the rest I’m sorry. If you read this my dear long lost friend, please send your address to me by 25 Jun to munmzzz[at] gmail.com.

The next thing is inviting my office people. Should I invite him or not. Should I invite the whole department or just few people. If I invite the whole department, imagine production department, then there wouldn’t be enough place even for my family in that hall.

Oh yesss… we decided to do it in Dewan Siviks MBPJ. It was very nice place and can accommodate up to 900 people. A bit pricey for our budget. But at short notice, that’s the only date and place that available. Would love to have it at my abang’s reception which was at Dewan Jubli Perak, Shah Alam. But my mom find out that they have stop doing any weddings there since early this year. Furthermore, Dewan MBPJ was quite near to my house which is very important aspect if you are planning a wedding. Furthermore the cost of petrol has risen, so it is wise to focus to anywhere that near. Hehe.

What is pending for this event:

1. Cards that haven’t been send.
2. To find cheap shop to do tiny thank you cards.
3. To get all RSVP so estimate attendees.
   

Dateline: 4^th July 2008

In pain

I felt sick in the stomach. My left shoulder is in great pain.
I felt like sleeping 24/7. But sleeping make my shoulder pain worse.

What's wrong with me?

Ps: I'm going to P. Ramlee musical this Tuesday... yeay! Hope I am fine and better by then.

80 cent more? Come on...

It was 10 pm when I told my dearest hubby that the petrol price will increase tomorrow and I want to fill my car tank. He confidently said that the price hike will be in August. Disappointed, I watched TV. Suddenly at 11.20pm, he came telling me that what I said earlier was true. (It took few geeks at LowYatt.Net to make him believe that). Franticly, we rushed to the nearest petrol station.

Boy, the scene was a chaos. Hundreds of car from various area tried to cram into the Shell petrol station. Then we decided to go to next petrol station. It was lucky that Bangi has a lot of petrol station. Lastly we managed to queue at Petronas. It was almost 12am.
My dearest hubby was lining up in front of me. After filling the his car, it was my turn. By the time I parked in front the petrol kiosk (or whatever you call that thing), the Petronas man was pointing at the price. Oh my God, the price has gone up. I just missed few minutes. Damn it!

But I filled up the new expensive petrol anyway. Just to know how much has I missed. I realized it was a lot. Before this, RM50 can get 3/4 tank which equivalent to 26 litres. But now, RM50 won't get 1/2 of the tank of my car which equivalent to 18 litres only. AAAARRRRGGGGHHH!

I was so pissed off that when I suggested that we need to carpool, my dearest hubby has to agree. Kesian him, has to wake up early to send to work today. But I got the feeling that today is the only day we'll carpooling. It's kind of hard to car pool when I'm having a boss from hell like mine.

Pak Lah, can we have alternative energy for our car (Beside NGV)? Could we have the liberty to buy hybrid car like Toyota Prius? And where the hell is the car that use 50% water 50% petrol that was launch last (or last 2 years)? Why we need to protect Petronas so much? Life is getting expensive yet the salary remain the same. Sigh...

On bright side, my bunny Choki was extremely friendly with me, which rarely happen as he was closer to Zainal than me. It's as if he understand my anger and sadness. He was playing cheerfully by my side, jumping up and down on my lap and cheer me up a little bit. That's another reason why I love animals. They do understand us in some ways.

Yes, I got it.... for now

Unlike few days ago, I was unexcited to open the website as I thought the result won’t be there yet. Without hope, I clicked the website name and immediately a new link catch my eyes. OH MY GOD… The result is out already. With a prayer, I clicked and started typing my IC no. Without stopping reciting the prays, I waited until……

“Tahniah, anda ditawarkan….”

I couldn’t believe my eyes. With my hands still shaking, I called Zainal. I couldn't even formed a proper sentence to tell him. But he understood it anyway coz I've been talking about this for days already. Without I realized, my tears started to roll down as I spoke to him. This happy news means of leaving him for few months or maybe a year. At the same time the tears is for the happiness of finally my dream is almost coming true and of course I can leave my boss for good.

It felt funny to cry at 8.30am in the office. Luckily there's no people around me. To tell the truth, it's hurt inside to hold such an emotion. The feeling of so much happiness that you want to jump around and hug everybody that need to be contained.

So now, new plan has to be done on top on another huge project this July. I felt excited because my dream and ambition is one step closer to become a reality. But of course it came with a condition that emotionally painful. I don't want to leave my hubby even for a week. I don't know how to live without him anymore.

Trying to stay happy while working

I don't want to complain or whining here. Coz I think it can bored people to death. I tried to complain less to Zainal too. But when I kept all the burden quietly, I become stressed. When the mind is stressful, the body become weak. When the body become weak, it gets sick easily. The latest addition to stress-related disease is jaw pain. I hope it's related to stress coz according to Mr Google, it can also a symptom of heart disease. Nauzubillah, I don't want that too.

Try to keep a positive thought about my 6 Sigma project. The tollgate is next week but at this moment, I don't even have a goal. Sad right. Actually I have quite an idea about my project but today's coaching was making me more confused. At some point I really want to quit this. Thankfully I get a new Champion, someone who is actively involve and very enthusiastic. She is waaaayyy opposite of my boss obviously. My whole department is not supporting me on this 6 Sigma project. They kept asking me why I spend so much time on this. For God's sake, why don't you ask the management & maybe you need to try to do it yourself and you know how much time you need to spend on it. Add to my bluriness and the fact that everybody taught different ways to me.

There's a new guy in the department. And he asked a lot of questions. Questions that drive you crazy, eg: 'What room is that?' pointing at small room under the stairs and there's the signboard on top of the door showing 'Janitor'. On other occasion, he asked one of my colleagues what apple she's cutting and she just shoved the apple to him to make him stop asking questions. Some questions are ok to ask but most of time I want to scream at him to shut up and read the SOPs, coz all the answer is in the SOPs.

Ok, I must be cool down. I really hate this job am I?

Oh, the only part of this job I love is EHS Awareness Committee meeting. The best meeting ever. We laughed, we kutuking & it's very happy environment. And it's tommorrow. They are the best bunch of people I've worked with.

Try to remember this in my head everyday:
"God will not give you something that you can't handle, so don't stress." - Kelly Clarkson (I got this from the American Idol Final commercial).

for one more day

Have you read books written by Mitch Albom. You know the guy who wrote Tuesdays with Morrie and 5 People You Meet in Heaven. I bought 5 People You Meet in Heaven few years ago out of curiosity. I heard a lot about this book and I'm wondering what's so good about it. It turns out to be one of the best book I've read.

The story was simple. If one day you died and if you can meet 5 people that made an impact in your 60-70 years of life who would it be. You'll be surprised that some of them is someone you don't even expected. Furthermore, the book is not the Dewan Bahasa thick kind of book and the language he used is very simple.

So last 2 weeks I bought another of his book, 'For One More Day'. The story was about a guy who attempting suicide but failed. During the unconsciousness he met his mother who had died 8 years ago. It's like he revisited his mother life once again. He find out about the why his father left his family, how his mother struggled to give a good life to him and few other things.

It made you think that you can't take life for granted. How do you know when would be your last moment with your loved ones. For this guy, he had a chance to have one more day with his mother to know and said everything that needs to be said. But us, do we have it? Obviously not. What's over is over.

There's few quotation that was very nice from this book. Some my favourites are:

"-now you know how badly someone wanted you, Charley. Children forget that sometimes. They think of themselves as a burden instead of a wish granted."

"A child embarrassed by his mother is just a child who hasn't lived long enough."

"Going back to something is harder than you think."

"Here is what you are going to find out about marriage: you have to work at it together. And you have to love 3 things. You have to love

1. each other
2. your children
3. your marriage

what I mean by that last one is, there may be times that you fight and sometimes you and her won't like each other. But those are the times you have to love your marriage. It's like a third party. Look at your wedding photos. Look at the memories you've made. And if you believe in those memories, they will pull you back together."

Birthday present

While busying ironing a whole basket of my clothes, came my hubby from behind kissing my shoulder with saying Happy Birthday. Wow, without I realized it, I'm officially 25 years old. I have lived a quarter of century.

What have I achieved in this 25 years living in this world? Yup, every year we keep asking this question to ourselves right. Well, I get married for a start. Learning to be a wife and live independently without my family and embak. Hehe... embak did a lot of easing my daily life. But now I got my loving hubby. Beside that, life is pretty good (if minus my boss). Won't changed any of it.

Oh, for the birthday present, I got this:



As what like I wanted. This is our gift to each other. This responsibility needs mutual agreement from both party to ensure smooth sailing of the growth of this creature.

Our little baby name is Choki. Actually we got it for a week already. This cute boy was born in valentine's day, so that's mean he's 2 months plus already. He's a Netherlands Dwarf breed. That's explained the small and cute body of his. Still not quite used to us yet even though we let him running around the living room everyday.

He's so damn cute. Rasa nak picit-picit je. And Shahnon, nope, taking care a rabbit is not as hard as I imagine. To tell the truth it's easier than a cat. But to tame it, take a lot of patience compare to cats.

Papa bunny with naughty Choki