Life is a canvas that you paint on it

We begin our journey in life as a white canvas that waiting to be drawn according to our choice.
Then we filled it with family & friends whom you share love, laugh & tears.



Cherish every moment of it!
(Not only when you are apart from them... like me - I learned the hard way :p)

Love Day

The Valentine's Day has come and go. As usual I was not too excited about this celebration due to the fact that a) people said it's Christian celebration and we shouldn't celebrate it and b) there was a bad experience on that date 3 years ago (or 4 years? I can't remember). But being in this country, this V-Day was celebrated widely. What I like here is instead of selling things at ridiculous high price where home country is practicing, here everything related to that event become cheaper. Chocolates especially is very cheap. So I would stocked my food cabinet with chocolate.

But this year, this day, or I like to call it Love Day, would be quite sad occasion as I don't have my loved one with me. Even though some students at Duke offered free hugs on Friday, but what I longing was hugs from the one I love, not some strangers.

However, something that put a smile on my face happened one day before Love Day. We have seminar every Friday evening and after that we have some reception. So far there's always a theme for every week i.e. Super Bowl, Chinese New Year and this week, Valentine's Day. So this week after the seminar finished, we played a group game. I was not in the mood and decided to just walk out. But it turned out that a group has found me and unbelievably we won the game! And I got this...

Thanks Aira for taking this picture for me. My camera is officially not working anymore until further repair.

Ahh.. at least I got something. Hehe.

And on the Love Day itself, I got a e-card from my beloved husband. A simple but very meaningful card that really really cheer me up. Every words was very meaningful to me. Thank you sayang. I love you so much.

Sometimes it takes a one specific day for someone to pour his/her heart out. Even though we need to tell our loved ones that we love them everyday, sometimes in our busy schedule, we just forgot to do it.

So readers, don't forget to tell your loved ones that you love them.

Duke vs UNC - Go Duke!

80% of the people in the campus wearing Duke T-Shirt today with majority has 'Go To Hell Carolina' stated big across their chest. Well, what do you expect. Today was the big game that everyone anticipated, men basketball between Duke and Uni of North Carolina. These two universities has been rival since back then.

Everyone was talking about this. Some have camped at K-Ville since the starting of semester to get the tickets. I have a friend in my class who practically lives in that tent for at least 5 days a week. Even in the freezing winter. Talk about passion. This week has seen more campers surrounding the area. I never seen something like this before. It was so cool I think. We can see how students love their school so much.

the K-Ville

Well, Duke lost 87-101 anyway. And my friend might not coming to class tomorrow. He has mentioned this morning that he's not coming tomorrow if Duke lost. Hehe.

I want to watch the game too. Somebody please give me the ticket to watch basketball games please.

Aku masih rindu

Dalam keheningan malam ini, aku ingin sesuatu yang mustahil. Aku ingin balik rumah. Bukan rumah di Durham. Tapi rumah di Malaysia. Jika aku kaya, tidak semestinya sekaya Bill Gates, tetapi cukup kaya untuk membazir RM6000 untuk balik ke rumah hanya untuk seminggu.

Kini aku hidup bersulamkan rindu. Tidurku bermimpikan rindu dan jagaku ditemani rindu. Aku rindu akan kehangatan pelukan cinta dan kemanisan ciuman kasih. Rinduku kini tidak hanya berkisarkan untuk suami tercinta tetapi kepada seluruh warga keluarga dikasihi.

Tidak kusangka sudah 42 hari jasadku di tanah asing ini . Namun nyawa dan perasaanku masih tegar di tanahairku. Sudah lupakah mereka pada jasadku yang makin meruncingkan ini.

Bilakah perasaan rindu ini akan bertukar menjadi kenangan indah dalam hatiku? Bilakah jasad dan nyawaku akan bersatu di sini? Aku inginkan itu. Hatiku sakit menahan perasaan yang menguasai jiwa, mataku tenat melawan limpahan air mata dan otakku sedih melihat jiwa menguasai mindaku.

Jika aku dibenarkan meninggalkan segala perasaan di dalam peti dan kunci buat seketika, akan direlakan untuk membenarkan minda berfungsi sepenuhnya. Bila masa pulang telah tiba, kunci akan dibuka dan perasaan diletakkan di jiwa kembali.

Aku tidak akan menulis dalam bahasa asing buat seketika hingga aku jumpa kekuatan aku semula di tempat asing ini. Aku harap secepat mungkin.

I'll do this if it can make you stay longer

I wish we have more time together...

Taken from www.xkcd.com

TV & Choki

Sepi itu indah. Really? Not to me though. I need constant sounds and any noise to remind me that I'm not alone in this world. That's why I need tv. Just to have some human voices in my room. That's why I disappointed when my house don't have cable. Cable is quite cheap here compared to ASTRO back home.

I love tv. Call it idiot box or total waste of time, tv is the best invention ever. I don't need plasma or LCD, just a big black box that shows pictures and with sound will do. I don't watch it all the time but I switched it on most the time.

I'm going to get a digital converter soon for my tv to get more channel. I have to get it before February something or else I won't received any channel at all.

~*~

When I found out that my landlady has 2 kittens, I thought I won't be missing Choki the bunny as I will get substitute. I was wrong big time. The more time I spend with the kittens, the more I missed Choki. Choki is still the best. He the cutest and the best bunny ever. I miss him so much. I woke up one morning and realized I missed Choki. But I bet he don't remember me now. He's such an amnesiac.

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What does tv and Choki have in common? I used to abandon Choki to watch my tv. Now I regret. I should spend more time with Choki. At least he will remember me (maybe deep inside his heart, he will).

Writing about Choki made me miss him even more. Nak gambar terbaru Choki!

Malas yang kronik

Ya Allah, kenapa la hambaMu ni malas sangat? Tak nak buat kerja sekolah langsung ni? Bukan tak nak tapi macam takde mood. Nak kata takde meja belajar, ada. Nak kata gelap, hari tu baru beli lampu meja baru. Nak kata takde buku, setakat ini buku adalah mencukupi.

Sudahkah dia lupa tujuan asal ke sini? Atau hati masih rasa kosong dan hiba? Tapi tadi dah pergi jumpa rakan-rakan untuk bergelak gembira. Dengan harapan hati rasa tenang dan belajar dengan bersungguh-sungguh. Tapi balik rumah, sama seperti asal.

Ya Allah, jauhkan sifat malas dalam diri ini. Kuatkan semangatku dan berilah ketenangan dalam jiwa. Amin.