Beauty and the Beast - The Japanese Story

Past few days I was hooked with the jdorama Densha Otoko. It's a story about a otoko (the "nice guy" class of Japanese geeks who wish to lead normal lives, but are too shy to find a girlfriend, or speak openly anywhere but online) who fell in love with a beutiful girl and seek help from single men thread on advices to get the girl. It was nice story though. It was said that this story based on true story. I don't know if it's true.

What interesting about this story is that it no matter how weird a person is, he/she has feelings and wanted to be loved. It just that they didn't know how to please people and end up making fool of themselves. Okay, seriously otoko is a bit weird to my taste. Even though it's hard to find one here, but I had a few friends that totally into the world of anime and manga. (That's including Naqib, I'm afraid). I like anime but I don't watch everything. I just picked ones that interesting and I don't buy figurines and dream of having a boyfriend like one of the character in anime. I knew someone who dream of having an anime character for a girlfriend. It's so ridiculous.

See, when you made yourself look weird like that (let's not talk about the appearence side coz it would took another one long paragraph about it), you cannot blame the female population to not like you. So sometimes you have to change to be accepted. In this story, the guy still be otoko at the end (with the figurines all around him) but at least he changed his appearance.

It's a very touching and warm story especially the part where densha otoko seeked help from his internet friends and they really care about him. It makes you wish that you had friends like them. Friends that never let you give up and went all out to make you happy.

Those who haven't watched it, why don't you try to watch it. It's only 11 episodes and I love the theme songs, very addictive. Hehe.

Look at the different of those 2 peoples. Unbelievable... (This guy remind me of 2 guys that I know. Hehe)



3 otoko, best friends...

(please men, don't wear like this)

Yay! SMKSJ is 25 years old...

My secondary school has turned 25 years old this year. SMK Subang Jaya is the first secondary school in Subang Jaya. It's not as old as Penang Free or MCKK but for a new town like Subang Jaya, it does feel like old.

I was there from 1996 to 2000. This school has gone up and down during this 25 years old. She used to be called Sekolah Harapan Negara and also become sekolah angkat to police for having one of the worst gangsterism in Subang Jaya. Well, now she's back with pride and greatness upn her name. What I saw, the school has changed tremendously. Jealous nye....

Last Sunday, SMKSJ has organized Malam Jubli Perak at Holiday Villa. I went there with my mom and Naqib. Actually I didn't know about this but my uncle got this free tickets and asked us to go. I really didn't want to go at first. But when I arrived there, I was glad I came. I met all my teachers and they even remembered me... It has been 6 years I've left the school and I missed my teachers. They did't change a bit. Pn Sharifah Noor with her usual question (read: when am I going to get married?), Pn Sasni, Ustazah Tusimah and lots more. And of course Pn Zubaidah (of course she remembered me la, she's my mak sepupu. Yup, that's why I never get caught of anything at school. Huhu). The school managed to gather former of the principals including Toh Puan Sri Rohani (she looked fantastic that night and she's one of the best principal we ever had).

I dunno why but somehow, this one form 4 guy managed to change this event into Disney On Ice with his performance of all Walt Disney songs (from Beauty and the Beast to Little Mermaid) and even asked us to sing along. I kinda felt that he stucked at primary school not in secondary school. But his voice was good though. Well, other performance tu so-so la, sekolah katakan. (No one can beat Graduation 2000's performance!! The best ever. Even though I got the feeling the teachers were disapproved by all the Limp Bizkit and Guns 'N Roses song.)

I tried to take as many picture with teachers but at the end I managed to take 1 only (tu pun dgn Pn Zubaidah). Haha..

My table. L-R. Mr Amin Tan- former student father and also my mom classmate back in form 6, Pn Zubaidah eldest son (now the mystery has been solved), Pn Zubaidah and my mom. Continue to back row, L-R. Me, 2 Pn Zubaidah's niece (I dunno what their name), Zuri - Pn Zubaidah youngest son and Naqib.
Siti Mariam and Ain pun ade.. dah nak balik baru jumpa la.

Plan Interrupted

You know when you had planned your day so carefully so that you can make sure the 24 hours time that God has given, then one problem occurred and suddenly everything went disorganized. I hate when that happen. Like today. I have planned my day including studied the night earlier so that I won't slow down the process. But then there's one guy who good at ruining plan called and asked (more of forced) me to go home. The paradox of his statement that he wouldn't mind to pay a lot so that the job is done today but when I suggested a place that I know that definitely can help him, he didn't want to listen.

The job would take 5 minutes of my time but the journey would took 1 hour journey to and fro. I end up staring at the ceiling after doing that job coz to continue my plan would be a waste a time as most of the time will spend on the road only (including waste of petrol and TouchNGo).

Arrrrggghhhh..... I'm so bored and frustrated.

(Mom bought that sign for me... she knows me well. I'm not the nicest people around this house, so just don't get me irritated. And if you look closely, you can see Naqib put my name there.)

"We are already expecting this..."

Today, I officially unemployed again. I resigned my post today after 3 days of thinking about it. When I gave my resignation letter to my manager, all she has to say was 'we have already expecting this....' without opening the envelope. What the?? I guess they have received a lot of this kind of letter. What do you expect, every week, there are at least 5 new people coming in here.

I'm kinda sad actually to leave marcus evans. It has wonderful people and very sporting company (we have fully paid paintball game next month) but the job there that I hate. Even our team, VA1, is becoming very close and despised our own team leader. Hehe. Good luck guys...

I guess I have to jobhunt back again.

That swimming pool was Regent Hotel's.

The view of KL from 21st floor of Central Plaza. It was taken from emergency staircase when I ran away from my table to clear my mind (or bergayut with anybody yg jadi mangsaku).

Unreliable Instinct

After he send me off this evening, there's something weird feeling left in my heart. This was not the usual feeling I had after our each date. It filled with sadness and loseness. I felt like I never going to see him. It's like something bad going to happen to him.

Finally, after hearing his voice and knew that he's alright, I was so relieved. This is another unreliable instinct that I always occur. He always said that I can't rely on my instinct because as far as I know it never actually true. Ok lah, maybe 1 or 2, but mostly are just unnecessary thoughts. Hehe.

First is not always the Best

Ever heard a saying that said your first one might not be your best one. Allah gives you that one first so that you'll appreciate the next one which might be the best one you ever have. The first one is to teach you what is life all about, to test your strengths and weaknesses, to try what is good and what is not for you. Then only you know what are you looking for in life and what you want to avoid in future. It gives you guidelines and experiences in life.

Yes, that what's my first job gave to me. To tell me that job that required on the phone 7 hours a day is a no-no for me. Considering that I'm not a big talker, talking non-stop was hurting my mouth. I can't sit at the desk for straight 7 hours too. I'm getting numb all over my body and my brain just freezed by not thinking and repeating the same script for hundreds of time a day. My cherish moment would be 15 minutes with the computer even though it still used Windows 98. (Yup, we have one computer to go around with 5 peoples. The company promised to give us one each but I still haven't seen any pc for us.)

I can't imagined myself doing that job another month (not even another week). It just torturing. Considering that nobody actually reply my email was another low-down of this job. I don't know what's wrong with me that those people in Philippines doesn't want to reply my email saying that they will be coming to the exhibition. For God's sake, IT'S FREE. Not a single person. Is my voice that turn them off? Coz my script was the same with others. Was I'm not persistant enough? I have been calling the same person for 3 times asking them to send that stupid email. They were nice enough to say yes, I'll do it today but where the hell is that email???? What's wrong with these people? It drove me crazy and it gave me a capital L right in the middle of my face.

God, I need to find another job, fast.

The End of a Fever

At last world cup finished last night with Italy won the glorious World Cup. Nasib baik Italy menang, kalau tak, buat penat je bangun pagi-pagi buta. This was the first time I woke up just to watch a football match. Mak was awake all night long just to make sure that everybody (i.e. my dad and I) woke up to watch the final. I personally asked 3 people at different locations to wake me this morning. Semangat giler. Haha.

Well, the effect of lack of sleeping can be seen today at the office where I barely could concentrated at any conversation. Poor Philippinos whoI called today have to repeat at least 3 times of what they are trying to say to me. Even phone numbers I couldn't registered in my head. I can even sleep standing in the trains today. (This is marvellous to someone who is difficult to fall asleep even in bed). At the of the day, I didn't manage to acquire any single visitor. Sigh. Never mind, this is only the first day I talked to clients. So, gambatte munm!!

Changes

I adapted to changes very slowly. The fastest was 1 month and the slowest was 1 year. I easily miss the fimiliarity and got depressed about it. Lately, life has changing rapidly around me. I'm glad that I finally finished study but kinda miss that thing actually. Now entering the working world, life changes again.

At home also there's a change that I tried to adapt for almost 2 weeks. Naqib was back into university and left me alone here in this room. Naqib was my chatting partner and my roommate. So when he's not here, I have nobody to talk too. I was sulking alone and find it quite depressing. Especially at work I still didn't have friends that you can be silly with yet. I found hard to stay sane without laughter at least once in 1 day. I need to laugh and I'll be okay.

Oh yes, one of my colleague was a Singaporean. He left Singapore to work here coz he married a Malaysian and she doesn't want to follow him to Singapore. I mean, HE has a lot of changes than what I've experienced right now. Then I should be lucky right.

Well, I guess that's life. Hmmm... I'm learning to deal what life has to offer me.

Now I’m going through changes, changes
God I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated save me
Now I’m going through changes, changes
-3 Doors Down 'Changes'

No Mood for WC

After Argentina loss yesterday, I have no mood to watch any games. Mind you, taurus is very loyal and I'm very loyal to Argentina. It just si sad to see the Argentinians let their goal to robbed by the Germans at the last 10 minutes. If only they defend more at the last minutes....

Then the worst was the referee was obviously looked that he was bias towards Germany. When Germans made foul, most of the time he closed one eye. At one time, when it was clearly Argentina should given a penalty shootout instead the referee gave him a yellow card. Benci la tengok game macam ni. That referee was the worst ever. Before this, can't remember which game, he was bias toward one team too. I don't know why FIFA thought he was good. Kalau camtu baik suruh Germany terus menang je. Takyah lawan dengan sape2. Kan senang.

I Just Miss You

I tried to grasp all the remaining
Hold on tight on what's left
But everything you said just made me angrier.

I tried to calm down
And wish this anger just flown away
Coz I don't want to lose you
Just because of this stupid feeling.

Please don't make things worse
And keep saying that hurt me
I just miss you
That's all
And it hurts to know that I can't be near you.

Friends are Forever

Yup, they are.... no matter where you meet them; fun child in kindergarten, primary school, rebellious years in secondary school and university life.... they are always the same, a friend. What's different between all of them are how close you are to them and how comfortable are you with them.

I don't remember much about my friends in kindegarten (in fact, I don't remember at all) but mostly (80%) of my primary school were at my secondary school. Sometimes you don't know they are actually at your primary school, only at secondary school you knew them (that's like me & Zainal case). There also those who were your best friends in primary school but when you were in secondary school, everybody was making their own ways.

Then there's Asasi friends who I'm very close for one whole year. Then after that, everybody continued their studies, the contact was lost. Everybody busy in their own world.

Then came university life which full of colours. More friends you met and from different background. Some you can tolerate but some was pure annoyance. This is the hardest part of friendship coz at this age you are not naive and innocent like the schooling years. You have grown up and you know what you want. At this moment you must know how to judge a person whether they are sincere with their friendship or they just want to use you. At this moment, you learnt the truth about life. And it's sucks.

Friends that always stay in my heart (even though I don't know what happen to them right now) would be: Nadira - my best friend from standard 2 to 5. Suraya in standard 6. Not forgetting Nur'Ain, Aidya, Junaidah, Hana, Aimi, Su Ann, Joel & Arfah. Then in secondary school- the Spice Girl/911/BSB/all the pop stars la gang - Suraya, Tameena, Farhana, Aimi, Faraha, Dini, Zafirah & Shauna. Then upper secondary (dah siuman sikit la) - the solehah chicks (God, I hate this name) - Faraha, Nadhirah, Sharain, Arfah, Intan, Mas, Sara & Liyana. Not forgetting the 4/5 Setians girls - Faraha (lagi!), Farah, Suhaila & Lisa. Yup along the way... the Al-Amin guys (they the one who gave us the solehah chicks name) -you know who you are, ramai sgt la nak cakap; just to mention few, Zainal, Shahnon, Faisal, Mazlan & Amri. Then at Asasi - Jarinah, Safiyah, Yana & Nazihah. And Izni, Izaida, Aryani & Lyan. Then at Engineering - the Tengs - Azliya, Yonz, Maizura, Anida, Farahiyah & Linda. And the AKIUM people- Peja, Muzammil, Masni, all the exco la. (wooo... letihnye linking everybody ni)

God, I miss all of them. Wishing all the best to all of you...

Ps: just received this evening that one of my friend in Asasi, Rohaizad, died this morning of blood infection. May you rest in peace. And let's give her Al-Fatihah. Al'Fatihah.... (Still in shock about the news... she was a sweet girl and very smart too)

The Search Is Finally Over

Finally, after 4 interviews, I managed to find the job that I can relate myself into. Not the perfect job since I haven't started and God knows how I will be working later, but at this moment, I like what I got. Getting up in the morning, all dressed up in the corporate suit with matching high heels and handbag, rushing in the trains with other fellow busy executives... haha. Funny that I haven't started my job yet, but having this perfect situation in my head without thinking the reality might look ugly than what I dream on. The crowded trains, long standing and mad rush hour is not one of my consideration. Let the girl dream will ya.

I got a job at marcus evans (M) Sdn Bhd. I went for the interview this evening and was immediately offered to become VA executive. marcus evans is a event management company which produces exhibitions, congress, conference and training around the world. A London-based company and KL become the Asia Pacific hub. Basically my job is to research who should come to the events and call to invite them to the events. If I was doing really well, I might be sent there for the event (which include Dubai, Jakarta, Bangkok etc). Wow, can I achieve that target? We'll see.

I will be starting next week with 3 days sales training. It's 5 days a week job and 8.30-5.30pm job. That's what I like about it. No need to travel around and confusing shift. Am I ready? Of course. Have been shopping with my mom this evening with new working clothes and shoes and handbag of course (though that bag wasn't for working purpose initially).

Anyway, wish me luck on my new job... Ciao.

This Holiday Must Stop

At one point, you start to think that this holiday should stop right now. The days of waking up late and watching stupid box should end and serious life should begin right now. This wake up call came today when life become so lonely when all the holiday gangs finished their holiday. With Naqib and Zainal started their classes, it just left of me staring into spaces alone at home. Faraha asked to come to her house, well, maybe sometimes this week I'll go.

Many cover letters and resumes have send out last week, one has called back (that's remind me to call marcus evans to make appointment for interview), Haagen Dazs will call tomorrow for the result (I keep my finger cross for this job... getting this job mean cheaper ice cream!!), 1 job has been rejected by everybody around me except me (kena ikut je la ckp, karang anything happen, nobody wants to help) and more resume will be sent.

This holiday is not what I have in mind. Wanted to go holiday at islands and beaches but can't coz of unavoidable circumtances. Well, maybe next time though.

Final word: Bosan.

There was a Fish...

There was a fish who was born to be eaten by another fish. She was bought with hundreds of her kind and put into an aquarium with 2 hungry turtles. Lucky star must be shining bright on her as the turtles didn't eat her. It was a miracle coz that 2 carnivorous creatures never let anything that can be eaten alive in front of them. Soon the 3 of them became friends till the end.

She was named Jap. She was lucky to have that name compared to other turtles who have weird names; too weird to mention here. She grew bigger and ate whatever the turtles ate.

But conflict occured in the owner household and one of the turtles was taken from that aquarium. Until these days, nobody knew what happened to that turtle. Jap left with heartbroken turtle. The turtle grieved for the lost of his friend and refused to eat. Jap forced the turtle to eat by shoving the food to the turtle. A year later, the turtle died coz of depression.

So left Jap alone in the aquarium. The owner tried to replace the 2 turtles by putting another 2 small turtles but they died after few weeks. Apperently Jap didn't like them. Jap was strong. For almost 2 years, she actually lived by eating turtle pellets.

Finally, the morning of 24 June 2006, Jap was seeing struggling in the water. It was obvious that it was her final moment. She was trying to breath but with difficulty. When the owner came back in the afternoon, clearly Jap was gone forever. The sad part was she didn't even had a chance to get a proper burial as that Indonesian woman who don't understand the meaning of pets, throw her away and let the stupid black cat ate her. That's the end of 5 years of Jap's life.

Footnote: This is true story and I know it sound melodramatic but this actually the first pet that I 100% responsible to. I used to wish that Jap died after the second turtle died coz she's not exactly the wanted pet and it will burden me but now I felt sad when she's gone. It was bad enough to watch her dying when you cannot do anything and it worst when people threw her away as if she was nothing. My big room felt eerily silent without the splashing sound of the aquarium water filter (and another occupant of my room also has gone to enter his tertiary education which make the matter worse) and I still can't stop the habit of looking at the aquarium everytime I walk past. This is so melancholy but this is how I felt today. First time I actually cried for the lost of a pet. Jap, In Memory... Who once an unwanted fish but now she was deeply missed...

CT of the Brain

Has not been updated recently because my house phone line was down and streamyx also went kaput. (pasal dah addicted sgt dgn net, terpaksa guna my 3G today to access the net. Habis la bill bulan ni.)

Btw, this is my report:

3 mm sections done for the posterior fossa and 8 mm sections for the rest of the brain.

The ventricles are normal in size and configuration.
No midline shift.
The brain parenchyma is normal.
Normal brain stem and cerebellum.
No mass or intracranial bleed. I
mpression: Normal CT of the brain.

Alhamdulillah.

Collecting Stuff

Everybody likes to collect something in their life. When we were small, we always said that we love collecting stamps... sometimes I wonder if everybody actually collect stamps? I know I did, just 1 album la. But that one also was not really collected coz I bought all the stamps and just compiled it in the album. Then as we grew older we started to collect something else. Some collect story books, comics, animes, figurines and some collects hot chicks. Some older men collect wives. Hehe. Not forgetting those who collect friends and enemies along the way.

I like to collect shoes. Yes, I know every women loves shoes and handbags. So am I. And I like to collect books and manga too. I used to collect eraser but I think I lost it after I changed my cupboard. I used to have different kind of eraser, from normal ones, the one with eyes that can moves and one that can dismantle to form another thing. Interesting right. Right now I have this collection that drove my mom crazy... collecting empty boxes. At one time, my mom threw all the boxes, but now I managed to collect a few back. Huhu.

However, lately I've been collecting thing that I don't want to collect; common and uncurable disease. I've got asthma, sinusitus, gastric pain and the latest edition, migraine (I just discovered yesterday after a trip to a neurologist) under my name. Hmmm.... have to do head scan tomorrow morning to make sure I don't have any weird things in my head (beside my imaginations and ideas). Wish me luck.

Here We Go... Ole ole ole

The World Cup fever is back. The sleepless night and confusion between time zone in Malaysia and Germany has infected Malaysian men and women too. Even though I'm not a fanatic footie, but I watched this once in the 4 years event religiously and keep ahead with the latest news . Yes, thanks the all the men around me; abah, Naqib & Zainal, for the info and latest news (this is what happen if you're the only girl in the family). Now I can know it's an offside by looking at it after Naqib taught me nearly 10 times. And I know how to bet also.... Hehe.

My favourite team is Argentina!! This 2 times champion has big names like Messi, Rodriguez, Crespo and Saviola is one of the Pele's choice for this year World Cup. Not mentioning my favourite player, Pablo Aimar is also in the team (even though he's not in the first team), a 1997 FIFA World Youth winner and creative footballer who helped Valencia to win many titles. Hopefully they play well this year unlike in 2002 where they managed until the group stage only. Next group that I place my bet is Brazil. They really joga bonita when they play in the field.

I will watch games that show at 9pm and 12am, but 3am.... will think about it la. Maybe semi and final I will try to stay up with Naqib.

Got to stop now, Netherlands vs Serbia & Montenegro is already taking off.

Interview 1.0

Since I just finished my degree and as usual, I should start looking for a job. So let's look the journey to get a job and how many interview I have to go through.

Yesterday I went my first interview since the holiday started. It was at Sunway Group for management training under SMART programme. Hmm... I applied that at Career Path UM and I think Leen applied with me too. (Betul ke? Yg kita dpt mouse pad free tu kan?).
Anyway, I already forgot that I applied this when the company called me for interview. So I just went there to try my luck. I thought the interview was simple and quick. But then I discover it has a tentative programme for that particular day. It started with the presentation from HR director. Then came the nerve breaking part where each of us has to introduce ourselves and tell everybody what are the biggest achievement of your life. And... there are around 10 of the interviewer from various company under Sunway Group's representatives watching and evaluating us from behind. Finding one achievement is hard enough but hearing people's achievement can shrink your self esteem. There's many students (including few from UM in mech engineering) who stated their academic achievement as straight dean's list in 4 years of study. Not mentioning a structural engineer who doing her master and at the same time she always teaches latin dance (talk about multi talent people). Then there's people with degree of financial engineering (that's the first time I heard about it). At the end I just talked what I think I appropriate la.

Then we had to answer 3 set of paper. (Teringat kat PTD exam yg baru amik hari ni). The first want was the personal test la, biase la tu, second one was about what our interest, and the last one was the most '....' (I can't find any word to describe that). We had to write a story about 150-200 words based on the picture given. And there's 6 pictures, so 6 story to write. Waaahhh... memang keluar la semua kemahiran imiginasi yang selama ni disia-siakan, ade juga faedahnya. Huhu.

We even had tea break. (The curry puff was delicious). Now I know why they gave us the mouse pad. Diorang mmg kaya la. Lastly, of course, the interview part. Mine took 45 minutes. And all the questions were mostly about you should find one achievement you did, then tell what you did to achieve that, what the problem you occured, the resolution and result. (Bila balik rumah baru abah cakap tu concept sama macam dia guna masa kat Kimberly-Clark dulu. Ceh, apsal tak cakap awal. Punye la praktis bende yang langsung dier tak tanya). I think I did okay in the interview. The HR director was very nice.

I keep my finger cross for this job. Macam best je. They said that 1300 actually applied and they shortlisted to 60 only. Bangga pulak dapat shortlisted. But mostly Chinese la. On my batch itself, around 20 people, only 2 Malays, tu pun sorang lg tetiba balik half way. I think dunno why. Hmmm... kalau dapat keje ni, dapat la diskaun Sunway Lagoon Resort Hotel and Sunway Lagoon. Huhu. But overall, klau dapat ni memang best la. Dekat dengan rumah pulak tu. Hehe.

Tribute to Mr Z

This post is tributed to Zainal for saving me from rushing home from interview and become the virus killer of our home.

ps: ni post ikhlas tau. hehe.

New Layout

This is my third skin. Not so much changes except the background and position of the columns. The background picture guess who is she? Hehe... ~moi~

At the small details will correct it later coz I'm sleepy already...

Anyway, can anybody help me how to erase the grey bar with the imagebucket things there. It's an eyesore la. Please...please...please...

Please feel free to comment this skin.