Post-honeymoon Syndrome

Starting working back after 1 and half week of holiday is pure hell. Especially if the holiday was in honeymoon mood. Starting the day was bad enough as I have to rely on people to send to work. I wish I didn’t have to trouble anybody. I hate it when people think of me as their burden. It just that starting the day with sour face would lead to more horrible feeling throughout the day. [ Naqib, you have only 1 week of my car. After that, you have to rely on others or walk to class. Just want to give lesson to you that how hard not to have your own transport. So take care of your own car carefully next time. ]

Well, these past few days were the hardest. The hatred toward THAT superior is building up faster that I can control. Feeling of hate is tiring, you know. Then when come back home, there’s a lot of things to be done as the house is not 100% completed yet. Then trying on new machine and stuff like that. This excessive usage of energy is a shock to my body after one whole week of relaxing. Worst part is I cannot take any additional supplement during my red dot week as it will disrupt the happily flow blood. So even 7 hours of sleeping won’t do any good to me. I end up sleeping anywhere I can put my head on and wake up feeling sluggish this past few days.

The thought that I’m not good enough being a wife has worsened the condition. I woke up in the middle of the night looking at him and thinking if I did anything that make him angry with me. All sort of weird thinking has gone through my head. Is the fan was directed to me only? Is he hot? Is he cold? Is he mad at me coz I slept first? Is he mad coz I fell asleep in front of tv? Is he mad at me coz I fell asleep before hanging all the clothes?

Dear hubby, I’m trying a hard as I can to be the best wife ever. I might look like I don’t perform as expected, believe me, I’m trying here. Give me some time coz my transaction might be slower than you think it would be. Peace.

3rd Day after The Day

Today is 3rd day me being a wife. Hehe. Nothing changes much yet coz we still staying with my/his parents house. Next week we will going back to Kajang and that's the time my skill as wife will be shown.

Everything was fine on that wedding night except not enough food. That was the first time we used that caterer and definitely the last time. Before this, we never had problem with not enough food. It's so embarrassing to the guests and really stressed my mom out. The caterer said that our guest was almost 300 people when we only order for 150 people. But we estimated that night the most is 200 including small kids. This is because my mom prepared 180 bunga telur but we have more then 40 left after the kenduri. And I felt more worse when the person who recommended that caterer actually perli me that I invited more people than what I ordered. Obviously the caterer had talked to her first and convinced that he was right. Shit la... I hate him. I thought he was good by the way he spoke about his experience and so on. It's all bullshittttttt!!!!! Hate him for ruing my wedding.

I really am sorry to those who didn't get the chance to eat. Even though we have bought extra food, there were still a lot of people who didn't eat that night. Especially my family. Kesian them. And also I hate those who buat lawak about the shortage of the food. Bukannye nak tolong, buat lawak lagi. Baik tak payah mengaku family!

Okay, relax mun. Btw, we're off to Bandung tomorrow for our second honeymoon. First honeymoon was yesterday at Sunway Resort Suites.

So more pictures of wedding when we'll meet Udey on Friday.

Oh, I love this picture of mine (yeah, I'm so vain).And I love this picture too.... among the 6 pictures that Udey has post.... tak tau la klau ade yg lg best.... hehe

Preview

This is a preview of what's happened last night. Stay tuned for more pictures!

Picture by Udey Ismail
& here

Just a rambling of bride-to-be

Yea... today is my 1st day of wedding leave. Seronoknya. Was vacuuming my room suddenly I remember I need to burn wedding songs cd. I need to hear first all the song and make sure that all the song is suitable for wedding. I don't want song like Avril Lavinge's Girlfriend end up playing at my wedding. So not suitable okay. And I don't want people saying stuff like 'oh this is not a wedding song'. I know people said that coz I always say that in weddings. Haha..

The lilies starting to bloom. I forgot to place them somewhere cool and left them in my room instead. Just realize it last night and immediately they placed in the toilet. According to the florist, the lilies need to bloom at lest 4-6 days. So you need to buy them early. I bought my flowers at this one flower wholesaler at Bandar Menjalara. We find a good deal as they sold 2 dozens of roses for RM14-16 only. Thay have this one big fridge that placed all the flowers. There are so many types of flower. I was impressed. The rest of flower will arrive tomorrow... Later I will list down all the shops that recommended that I've found.

Ok, better continue vacuuming my room back before supermom datang mengamuk.

Unrest thoughts

I stumbled upon a blog last night that keep me thinking the whole day today. At first I was impressed by this guy achievement in his career which he described in the blog (plus there’s a link to his resume). As I read through, I discovered that he was having affair behind his wife back. He even post his ‘girlfriend’ picture with different pose and comments.

Well, this is not a shocker to me. Growing up in the family where men ratio is bigger than women, I’m used to hear about this stuff. I was even involved in this situation when an uncle of mine brought me along to spy on my another uncle second wife. At that time I was a naïve little girl but big enough to remember the details. These few years, Raya had been different when second wife topic is a taboo when two of my uncles actually took a second wife each. My grandma was sick for more than a week after hearing that news. She has specifically told her every son that whoever who wish to have second wife must wait till she died. She said as long as she live she doesn’t stuff like this happen. Not to mention in office where mostly married men were the ones that most gatal.

So who can blame woman when they refuse to get married. Unmarried women are on the rise. They are successful and single. They choose career over marriage. What they choose has sparked fury from men. Men said that they are choosy, fussy and tak ikut sunnah Rasul la. But who can blame them when men themselves who create this unfaithfulness condition.

Okay, this is seems paradox for someone who’s going to get married in 4 days. Even though the reality is this, but I still believe in marriage. I believe if we BOTH work hard enough to sustain our relationship, we will be the happiest couple till end of our life despite all the hardness in the world. But if one failed, this matrimony will collapse easily. Yes, I’ve learned that and so did him. We are not the saint couple. We have our highs and lows in our relationship. We’ve been hurt from each other but we recovered and we learned from our mistake.

Not all marriage must end up with an affair or second wife or divorce. There are many more that are still deeply in love after 50 years of together. In fact I think there are many couple like this in the world but never been highlighted. I understand that being a Malay people always don’t like that kind of stuff. They think it’s mengada-ngada la, geli la etc. But when cases like divorces, affairs and stuff like that, they will follow throughout. Maybe we should changes this mindset. Then, without we realize it, we will follow the happiness and adopt it our life.

Easy said than done but hard work will be paid though. Let’s pray happiness to all mankind.

Called me Cik Mun... Quick before it's too late

Cik Munm... 4 more days to use this name.

After that, I'll be Puan Munm...

But I'm still Cik Ngah & maybe Cik Su too? Haha...

Am I ready to be Mrs Zainal? Only time and Zainal will tell.

Shit, now I feel so scared... Scared that I didn't be a good wife. A wife that a husband won't even think of having another wife. A wife for this life and in heaven. InsyaAllah.

It's 2008 already!

Time fly so fast and before you realize, it's new year already. I used to list down all the highlights of moi for that year. But this year there's not much to brag about. I guess when you start working, life is pretty dull right. Anyway, I can't say nothing happens at all during 2007. Let's see what had happened:

1. Zainal & me had our 5th anniversary already!
2. And finally both of us ready to move to next level. But that's this year story.
3. I was transferred to new department with supposedly more experience and lebih hebat boss but sadly not in managerial area.
4. Oh yes, my mom & dad finally agreed to let me live at my own.
5. Well, that's it for 2007. Ha... sikit je compare to 2006.

Another exciting thing about new year is new year resolutions! It was made to see how good are you when you promise yourself with something. And of course nobody actually manage to follow ALL their resolutions, right. But this year my resolution is different. Not so different than last year's but, this year I got someone whose resolution is to make sure my resolution is achieved. Waaaaaaahhhh.... He even has started it today. Like no more driving when going to dinner and somemore paksa orang jalan naik bukit plak tu... Haiya... Next time, keep your resolution to yourself. You never know what people around you are capable of. Hehe.

This year there's a bit shortage of calenders and diaries. No more bundle of calenders to choose from. But I got a calender specially posted from Denmark.... Wah... Feel really honored to receive that from a president of top company. I thought he would just kept my card just like everyone else. Couldn't believe he actually send a calender & season's greeting card with it. The downside of that calender is there's no public holidays of Malaysia and full of 'GMP question of the day'. God, I feel so nerdy by having that calender. Takpe la, next time I can be GMP trainer plak.. Haha.. wishful thinking.

Oh, one of the resolution is to stop talking crap and I already break my resolution on the 2nd day of new year... Crap.

Well everybody.... Happy New Year 2008!