Yes, I got it.... for now

Unlike few days ago, I was unexcited to open the website as I thought the result won’t be there yet. Without hope, I clicked the website name and immediately a new link catch my eyes. OH MY GOD… The result is out already. With a prayer, I clicked and started typing my IC no. Without stopping reciting the prays, I waited until……

“Tahniah, anda ditawarkan….”

I couldn’t believe my eyes. With my hands still shaking, I called Zainal. I couldn't even formed a proper sentence to tell him. But he understood it anyway coz I've been talking about this for days already. Without I realized, my tears started to roll down as I spoke to him. This happy news means of leaving him for few months or maybe a year. At the same time the tears is for the happiness of finally my dream is almost coming true and of course I can leave my boss for good.

It felt funny to cry at 8.30am in the office. Luckily there's no people around me. To tell the truth, it's hurt inside to hold such an emotion. The feeling of so much happiness that you want to jump around and hug everybody that need to be contained.

So now, new plan has to be done on top on another huge project this July. I felt excited because my dream and ambition is one step closer to become a reality. But of course it came with a condition that emotionally painful. I don't want to leave my hubby even for a week. I don't know how to live without him anymore.

Trying to stay happy while working

I don't want to complain or whining here. Coz I think it can bored people to death. I tried to complain less to Zainal too. But when I kept all the burden quietly, I become stressed. When the mind is stressful, the body become weak. When the body become weak, it gets sick easily. The latest addition to stress-related disease is jaw pain. I hope it's related to stress coz according to Mr Google, it can also a symptom of heart disease. Nauzubillah, I don't want that too.

Try to keep a positive thought about my 6 Sigma project. The tollgate is next week but at this moment, I don't even have a goal. Sad right. Actually I have quite an idea about my project but today's coaching was making me more confused. At some point I really want to quit this. Thankfully I get a new Champion, someone who is actively involve and very enthusiastic. She is waaaayyy opposite of my boss obviously. My whole department is not supporting me on this 6 Sigma project. They kept asking me why I spend so much time on this. For God's sake, why don't you ask the management & maybe you need to try to do it yourself and you know how much time you need to spend on it. Add to my bluriness and the fact that everybody taught different ways to me.

There's a new guy in the department. And he asked a lot of questions. Questions that drive you crazy, eg: 'What room is that?' pointing at small room under the stairs and there's the signboard on top of the door showing 'Janitor'. On other occasion, he asked one of my colleagues what apple she's cutting and she just shoved the apple to him to make him stop asking questions. Some questions are ok to ask but most of time I want to scream at him to shut up and read the SOPs, coz all the answer is in the SOPs.

Ok, I must be cool down. I really hate this job am I?

Oh, the only part of this job I love is EHS Awareness Committee meeting. The best meeting ever. We laughed, we kutuking & it's very happy environment. And it's tommorrow. They are the best bunch of people I've worked with.

Try to remember this in my head everyday:
"God will not give you something that you can't handle, so don't stress." - Kelly Clarkson (I got this from the American Idol Final commercial).

for one more day

Have you read books written by Mitch Albom. You know the guy who wrote Tuesdays with Morrie and 5 People You Meet in Heaven. I bought 5 People You Meet in Heaven few years ago out of curiosity. I heard a lot about this book and I'm wondering what's so good about it. It turns out to be one of the best book I've read.

The story was simple. If one day you died and if you can meet 5 people that made an impact in your 60-70 years of life who would it be. You'll be surprised that some of them is someone you don't even expected. Furthermore, the book is not the Dewan Bahasa thick kind of book and the language he used is very simple.

So last 2 weeks I bought another of his book, 'For One More Day'. The story was about a guy who attempting suicide but failed. During the unconsciousness he met his mother who had died 8 years ago. It's like he revisited his mother life once again. He find out about the why his father left his family, how his mother struggled to give a good life to him and few other things.

It made you think that you can't take life for granted. How do you know when would be your last moment with your loved ones. For this guy, he had a chance to have one more day with his mother to know and said everything that needs to be said. But us, do we have it? Obviously not. What's over is over.

There's few quotation that was very nice from this book. Some my favourites are:

"-now you know how badly someone wanted you, Charley. Children forget that sometimes. They think of themselves as a burden instead of a wish granted."

"A child embarrassed by his mother is just a child who hasn't lived long enough."

"Going back to something is harder than you think."

"Here is what you are going to find out about marriage: you have to work at it together. And you have to love 3 things. You have to love

1. each other
2. your children
3. your marriage

what I mean by that last one is, there may be times that you fight and sometimes you and her won't like each other. But those are the times you have to love your marriage. It's like a third party. Look at your wedding photos. Look at the memories you've made. And if you believe in those memories, they will pull you back together."

Birthday present

While busying ironing a whole basket of my clothes, came my hubby from behind kissing my shoulder with saying Happy Birthday. Wow, without I realized it, I'm officially 25 years old. I have lived a quarter of century.

What have I achieved in this 25 years living in this world? Yup, every year we keep asking this question to ourselves right. Well, I get married for a start. Learning to be a wife and live independently without my family and embak. Hehe... embak did a lot of easing my daily life. But now I got my loving hubby. Beside that, life is pretty good (if minus my boss). Won't changed any of it.

Oh, for the birthday present, I got this:



As what like I wanted. This is our gift to each other. This responsibility needs mutual agreement from both party to ensure smooth sailing of the growth of this creature.

Our little baby name is Choki. Actually we got it for a week already. This cute boy was born in valentine's day, so that's mean he's 2 months plus already. He's a Netherlands Dwarf breed. That's explained the small and cute body of his. Still not quite used to us yet even though we let him running around the living room everyday.

He's so damn cute. Rasa nak picit-picit je. And Shahnon, nope, taking care a rabbit is not as hard as I imagine. To tell the truth it's easier than a cat. But to tame it, take a lot of patience compare to cats.

Papa bunny with naughty Choki