Stress-o-rama

I just wish that I had the guts to send the ‘letter’ even though I have no another job to back up. The stress is building up and my asthma who has left me at least 5 years, suddenly happily migrate in my lung again. And I think he gonna stay that a quite some time. He was going to left me again, but he, who only ‘visit’ me when I really really really stress, chose to stay since that’s the way I am now.

My history of asthma went back when I was small. During the primary school years, it was like the most productive time. I got it almost every month. But when I was small, it’s usually because of food and environment. When I was in upper secondary school, it was rarely infected. After that, it was like almost none. It felt like it’s coming, but early intervention has stopped it. Usually when I was damn stress (when even migraine can’t handle the powerfulness of the stress). Now, I guess the situation has returned. I was ok after MC 2 days. But returning the job I hate, listening to the voice I hate, watching the face I hate, I sensed that my asthma is coming back. Sigh…

My whole point is not about my asthma but how stress I am now. I miss the first few months of my job. It was exciting and I learnt a lot. But now, everything turned like hell. The funny part is, all my colleague are supporting my by telling me the worst story about that ‘guy’ when they were under them. Hahaha… It’s like everybody in the company knows about it. Haha…

Hmmm…. Anybody have any job to give me? I’m willing to learn new things. I mean what I’m right now is way far from what my degree stated. I can adapt to environments but I can’t adapt to s****d boss. Especially when he blamed me for his all mistakes and make me look stupid in front of people. Do you think I’m going far if the senior boss looks at me as an useless worker?

Of Quality, Environment, Health and Safety

Trying to distract myself from the work that I dislike, I joined extra-curricular at my workplace. Since my friend asked me if I want to join her committee, I just agree. So here am I in the Quality & EHS (Environment, Health and Safety) Awareness Committee. I guess this is the best committee to join. With friendly and surprisingly all women committee, I felt like am a part of team.

I joined at the perfect timing as they preparing for Q & EHS Week 2007. It was held earlier this month and I proudly said, I contribute quite a lot. Hehe... My friend and I was in charge of designing the banner, banting, mug and T-shirt. I'm so happy to do the designing thing coz that what I really like to do. I like art but never given an opportunity to expand it.

Anyway, that week was hectic. And the worst part is, I was down with fever. Luckily I was only fully involved on Wednesday for GMP game and Monday the week after that for closing. But on Friday I realized that I have signed up for Safety Hunt (it's treasure hunt with different name). I tried to find substitute coz I don't think I well enough to join a hunt but nobody wanted to. So I joined je la since I already promised my team.

There I was on Saturday morning cracking my head with all my teammates while ignoring my health for a while. In blazing hot sun I stood looking for answers. But... it was not useless. We won 2nd place... wooohhooo.... I can't believe it. We won a hamper and RM300. Berbaloi bangun awal-awal.

My team: Me, Kak Entan from HR and Siew Lei from QA.

The Winning Team =)

So on Monday, I forced myself to come to work because it's the closing ceremony for that week. And of course the prize giving ceremony for the Safety Hunt. I came half day only and because I'm in the committee, I have to help out. I end out become sicker.

Me & the committee singing our heart out ...hhehe..

So the next 2 days, I was on medical leave because my fever has turned to asthma attacks. Geezzz... I guess the objective of Q & EHS week for healthy life was not working for me.... Hahahaha...

The last smile before I was driven home and give 2 days of MC....

Long Merdeka Weekend

The weekend started with 30 minutes bang of firework. The longest time I ever saw in my life. 30 minutes of ooohhss and aaahhs and then 2 hours of traffic jam. Was forcing myself not to fall asleep just to teman zainal driving. (and he blackmailed me to left me in the car in dengkil if I felt asleep). What I do to stay awake? Singing songs with the radio and doing stupid stuff until at 1 point zainal asked me to sleep coz he can't handle my psychoness. Nasib lar. I made some observation also that night. Kekentalan seorang ayah membawa keluarga menonton fireworks and end up in the 2 hours jam while all the family members were happily sleeping in different funny position in the car. And then I remember my dad. I always sleep whenever we went more than 1.5 hours trip. Kesian my dad kena drive.

I missed the merdeka perarakan this year. I meant to watch it (on TV of course). Just want to see what was UEM uniform this year. Since I'm part of it now, so mesti ambil tahu! Was sleeping till noon. That evening I made some decision that until now I'm not sure it's the correct one or just pure waste of money. I'm still confused.....Waaaa...

Anyway, Nadhirah got engaged yesterday and also her birthday. What a wonderful time to get engaged right. She looked gorgeous in orange. Most of all, I love the tepung pelita. Sedaaapp...

At the end, this weekend can be considered well filled in and lots of sleeping (which is great, according to me). Tomorrow going to start another hectic working week coz the EHS Week is on and I'm part of it and... I got presentation on Friday which I haven't done anything yet. Sigh...

(Next time will try to write something interesting than my life)