Few months ago i had a conversation with my friend. The topic mostly about our current lives or more precisely about my life. She kept on asking me questions and commented my answers by hurtful remarks. We are pretty competitive with each other and since I'm in the good mood, I answered her questions jokingly all the way. But this one topic that I really uncomfortable talking to anybody came up and as usual she asked more questions on that. Honestly for this topic, I have standard answer for all the questions until she gave me a really hurtful comment that I was stunned for a moment. Her remark really hit all the right places in my heart and make me wonder if she believe in qada' and qadar at all. Like did she really think that it is solely because of me that sometimes what we planned not materialized. Not because the All Mighty has planned for me.
For months that sentence kept on playing in my head. I was scared to tell my husband coz my husband has warned me few times not to be closed to some people that will hurt me. I just can't get that out of my head. I'm so angry, sad and shocked to get that response especially from someone I called a friend.
Until I heard a bad news that happened to her recently. When I calculated the timing, it so happened that the incidents happened in the same month that I had a conversation with her. She never mentioned it at all and me being being, usually I just ignored if people don't want to talk about it.
Then I felt bad for her. She was having a bad time and she needs to make people feel bad about themselves so that she won't so bad about her situation. I thought she must feel that I have a good life that she needed to put me down. Wow, unintentionally she make me feel good. I feel really sorry for her the needs to find flaws and imperfection in my life to make her feel better.
And for that, I forgive you babe. Thank you for making me appreciate my life more.
I hope you find your happiness within yourself.
