Even crab don't feel crap

I felt like a crap. I dunno if I woke up at the wrong side of bed but that’s the only side that I wake up everyday. Or is it because the first voice I heard today was my boss calling me even before I reached office. I dunno.

Life at work is becoming shitty and shittier. It’s true what my ex-colleague said before; even though your working with the best company with best benefit with the best colleague but if your boss is the total asshole, you won’t be happy. Because boss is the one who give you the performance rating and your KPIs every year. Boss is the one who determine your advancement in a company. Boss who can make or break you. Colleagues can make you laugh and share your tears but they won’t determine either you are going to stay at that spot forever or climb the ladder.

To make things worse everyday there are always somebody who resign. Turnover for this company is very high, no doubt about it. Even my close colleagues also has resigned. She’s the one who sat next to me and always become the place for luahan perasaan. I kinda miss her right now. Hmmm…

I know my boss don’t trust me. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m not a pharmacist and I kind of suck in formulation. What to do, they don’t teach drugs formulation in engineering department. Sometimes when I find out some new info (I read about this also okay… jangan harap nak suruh dia ajar ke ape) or I give some ideas for improvement, he just brushed off. Just now I heard someone in QC said that my boss said I can’t make decisions. I’m not sure if he meant that I’m not capable of making any decisions or at my level, I’m not supposed to make any decisions. Whatever he meant I don’t care. Now when people asked anything, I just asked them to wait for my boss. Then the people will know how always my boss gone and how always he talked around the bush which have no conclusion at the end. Padan muka. Shit la, one day if there’s a law saying that you can kill a person without being charged with anything, he’s in my top list.

Did I tell you that he’s my Champion for 6 Sigma? How unfortunate someone who has to be with his boss only. Some other candidate got to choose other head of department as their Champion. But I am stuck with this balloon. Just now a person remarked who’s the unlucky person who has him as Champion. When I admitted it was me, she just laugh away and wish me luck. Sedih tak?

All I want to do right now is crawling under the comforter and sleep forever with Zainal by my side. I don’t care about my KPIs, the 6 Sigma or any production problems anymore. I don’t care if tomorrow is holiday and this Sunday is my birthday. I just don’t care. I just want to be happy and stress-free. Is it hard to ask?

Ready or not

Ready or not, the hectic days are coming before I realized it. The Six Sigma Define stage training end yesterday. The Tollgate Review will be at the end of this month. It supposedly not that much work as we required to do around 10 presentation slides. But within that 10 slides, there's thousand of data that need to be collected. I don't mind collecting data and analysing it. But what I don't like is when it's involving other people/department. I don't have this ability to force people to get my data. When they started saying they are busy and such, I immediately back off. That's why I always get anything I need from another more than a week. Hai...am I too soft with people?

Beside Six Sigma, I have volunteered myself to become internal audit for ISO 9001 and cGMP. That was before I knew that I was selected as Green Belt candidate. So, I'll be going to internal audit training this week and the audit start week after next.

The question is.... when am I going to start collecting the data for my Six Sigma? Waaaaa....

On other note, I'm turning quarter century next week... Can't believe how fast we getting old. Was hopping to get a rabbit from hubby but I am not sure at this stage of workload, is it a wise idea to keep a pet especially the one that needs a lot of care. But I want one!! So tomorrow we will survey the rabbits.... =)

Oh, I want to watch the shitty AF now.

Green belt

I was chosen to do project under Six Sigma Green Belt second wave. To tell the truth, I'm secretly excited but mostly nervous. I'm nervous because I'm scared I can't achieve my KPI (key performance indicators) at the end of the year since I'm involving in this Six Sigma. I think this is a very good opportunity to improve myself in corporate world coz Green Belt certified surely can improve my paycheck tremendously. Hehe...

Seriously, I'm not even sure if my topic can have hard saving of RM500 000 in 6 months. I need to save that amount of money to obtain the green belt. That's something be scared of. Furthermore the increasing workload of my department has made the situation worse. I just wasted 2 days of this week writing something that would be discharged coz of my boss indecisive mind and degil problem. Shit la.

Next week I will go for the 3 days training for this six sigma thing. I've seen all the previous batch belters who need to work till late at night to finish this thing. Really really need to work hard for this thing. Worse still, your saving is not enough to qualify you. So you have to take another project to top up the balance. That's horror man. The good thing about being chose is that I don't need to do the continuous improvement project (CIP) that required every executive to do at least 2 a year. Haha..

At one point of the day in the office, I felt like stopping all my work at once and just enjoy the gift of technology, internet. And thankfully, I always have a lot of ideas to search for during office hour. But when I step into my house, my head when blank on what site to go. So I end up playing games or just watch tv.

I wish my new department colleague will get well soon and come back to work soon. Since she joined my department, she's been on leave for a week twice and now MC for a week plak. Hai, at the end, I felt like previous condition-me doing all the department job alone again. Sometimes I wonder if boss is programmed to have an allergic reaction to doing works. The weird thing is, they can write a 4 pages report by hand and ask us to type back. Can they just type instead of write it down? But they keep insisting the latest and best computer in the company. Weird but true.

So good luck to me.

Meow meow

There's a calender next to my office printer which highlight mother's love. Instead of putting human pictures, it posts picture of animals with their baby. Every month it showed different animal. It so happen in April, it showed a leopard hugging with her cub. Oh my God, that was the cutest picture ever.

The picture made me want a cat desperately. Every time I passed the printer, I will stare at the picture and missed more and more my pets. I missed the fishes that I promised to bring to new home but they are so big now and the aquarium is quite big too... So sorry guys...

Cats is no-no as we live in apartment right now. It won't have any suitable area for them to have a good life without disturbing our place. Geezzz... I want a pet!

I grew up with pets around me. From fish, rabbit, birds, chicken, turtles to iguana (only few months), we never have a shortage of animal to taken care and play around with. Cats will always be around; no matter the one that taken care of or volunteer to be taken care of (stray cat la). I love animals cause I can talk talk to them and pretend to get angry with them. Haha.

Whatever it is, I think whoever who hate animals are the one who don't have hearts. But I hate ants, mosquitoes & rats. The others are free to stay but please don't disturb me. And spider with long legs are everywhere in my house, not that I hate them but they made my house looked unkeep and there's a lot of spiderweb everywhere. Please spider with long legs, please stop making spiderwebs everywhere.

I'm the biggest fan because......

I am the biggest Celine Dion fan because...... because.......because....

Damn it... I hate contest that has slogan to be continued. I'm have trouble writing creatively for less than 150 characters. Not that I'm good if given 2000 words limit. Haha. Used to be quite good in writing in BM, but SPM result has tainted my self-confidence. So my career in writing just go down the drain.

Oh, back to the topic, I really really want to go to Celine Dion concert this April after missing BSB concert that day. (Some people didn't want caught dead at BSB concert la... Ceh, talk about being together through rain & shine...huhu...). But Celine Dion concert ticket is expensive. Can't afford to buy for 2 people (coz the other one is force to join. Nak harap volunteer, memang tak dapat la. He already asked me how to behave at that concert. Should he sleep or acting interested? Macam-macam la)

So I know the first 2 answers but the slogan thing........ Aaarrrghhh... tak tahu nak tulis ape.... Leen, any help? Got any idea? =)

Album part 2 (& final)

Apparently I forgot to continue the album post due to the work stress.... hehe... This is the last part and after this, no more wedding pictures okay....

The final product... Nice huh.... love it very much!!
(Don't like my pic on that cover though... I look fat...eurgh)

Give some holiday peace

Why sometimes God gives us a difficult person to deal with? Is it because He wanted us to appreciate the next one which is the good one? People always said that. Or is it that we already got the good one before but we never appreciate it. Now when we got the worst one, we’ll realize that the last want was one of the best. I hope it’s the 1st thought. Seriously I kept reminding that statement to myself whenever I have to deal with my boss (which is everyday). Seriously, his behaviour and attitude is unbearable. The latest one was this week and until today I felt angry towards him.

Yesterday was public holiday. So me and Zainal planned to use the free one night stay coupon at Genting First World Hotel. We booked the room a month ago for 18 Mar. We thought to go today but apparently the coupon is for non-peak day. So I applied half day leave on 18 and 1 day leave on 19. The public holiday on 20 will add another extra day of holiday. I already applied this leave at the end of February and was approved.

On 18 Mar morning, I reminded my boss that about my leave. And guess what? He made a big deal of it. At 12 pm suddenly he asked me to changed my leave la, postpone it because he wanted to discuss about something.. I told him that can we discuss it now, why wait in the evening (I know why-he wanted to leave for lunch early like always). So we discussed at that time. THAT something turned out to be everything that I’ve been telling him many times. Shit la. The discussion finished about 30 minutes only. I nearly wasted my leave and get myself burn with Zainal’s fury about this stuff. Can you believe it? And the sakit hati part was that he kept on repeating that I’m going on leave tomorrow and told other department boss who sat next to him about it. Hello? Is that necessary? It looks like as if I make something shitty that need to be told and laugh at. It’s not that I took a month leave. Only a day ok. Benci.

And today when I came to work, the clerk told me that my boss asked if I changed my leave. Bukan dah abis bincang ke?

This is not the first time this happen. Every time I wanted to take leave, 2 hours (or 1 hour) before the day end, he suddenly become kelam kabut and asked me to tell him what have I done so that if anyone ask him, he knows what to answer. Before this he never care to know what I’ve done. Or he asked me and then forgets the next minute. Therefore he always asks me to attend the management meeting so that I can answer on his behalf. Bengang tak.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

My vote goes to...

General election is coming in 3 days. It's hard to ignore if you stay in Malaysia. The side roads full of posters hanging, half hanging and scattered around. TV, radio, newspapers and internet is full of election coverage. At some point, I felt drowning in all these political agenda and wanna puke to all the sweet promises of candidates.

What I know is, this 8th March, I will use my right as a citizen of Malaysia to vote. So next time when I'm complaining about the leadership of this country or at my place (whoever will win) I have the right to do that. Nobody can't stop me. So those of you who didn't register or don't want to vote, keep your foot in your mouth and shut up. HAHA.

So who should I put an 'X' at? Dacing, roket, bulan mengambang, bulan separuh or buku (yes, my place got buku-very intellectual) which one can guarantee better future?

UNDI adalah RAHSIA.

On other story, but same topic, my boss likes to ask people who they want to vote. Paksa orang jawap plak tu. Tension betul la. Tahu la sokong Hindraf. Bencisss...

J.Co Donuts

In the midst of doing this boring BMR (batch manufacturing record) for simvastatin, suddenly I remembered my J.Co donuts. The chocolatey-taste-melt-in-my-mouth felt make me can’t wait to go home. This craze of J.Co is ridiculous. This is the second weeks in row we had J.Co donuts. Last week I was in KL area, I bought ½ dozen. Yesterday, after doing some errands in KL, I managed to stop by Pavilion just to get a dozen of J.Co. Managed to get 4 pieces of that Choco Loco. Seriously sedaaappp… memang buat you jadik loco la.

We (me & Zainal) had our first taste of this diet-spoiler thing in Bandung since our attempted to buy at Malaysia failed as we wouldn’t want to queue that long just to get.. well… donuts. At first I think it was ok la. It softer than Dunkin Donuts and I’m not a big fan of donuts. I am happy with the traditional donut, the one that sprinkle with refined sugar. So in Bandung I wasn’t quite sure what the hype of this J.Co thing. Oh yes, in Bandung, you don’t even have to queue up. There’s no line at all… The supir tu pun malas nak layan kitorg dgn aksi jakun kitorg… haha…

But then, last week I bought all this chocolatey donuts and realized, oh my God…… sungguh sedap la…. (apparently the flavour I bought at Bandung not so nice la)

Ok, typing this make me want that donuts more…. Nyum nyum…

(hope zainal didn’t finish up the donuts yet…. Oh yes, dia suka makan 1 new flavour donut sampai abis & baru cakap sedap. Ces…. Lepas ni, nampak je dia makan, terus je minta rase…haha)

Album part 1

Obviously I have no idea what to write.... therefore I keep posting the album pictures...hehe

Album part 0

Finally.... my album preview.... lame kena tunggu.... biasanye, hidup kena bersabar kan....

Fireworks

I love fireworks... I don't mind going to KLCC with thousands of non-Malaysian for Malaysia National Day at midnight just to watch the fireworks. I admire the pyrotechnics technology that they manage to show every year.

But since I rent at Kajang, fireworks suddenly become something that you never has to trouble yourself or wait twice a year. Fireworks seem like normal here. For every festival say Deepavali, Gong Xi Fa Chai, New Year, you name it, they have it. This is not mercun that just give you that loud bang sound but this is the full beautiful fireworks that you see at the KLCC or somewhere equivalent. Seriuosly, where the hell that this people gets all this supply. I want it too. I thought I want to have it during my wedding. Haha...

As I'm typing this, the fireworks have been exploding almost (if not more) an hour already. It's normal to watch 2 different places of firework at the same time. If you are lucky, you get to watch 3 places. I used to enjoy watching it from my 13th floor balcony but as people always said, too much of something is not good. I have lost the excitement of watching fireworks nowadays. Even the sound of it has become immune to my ears.

I'll post the picture that I took few minutes ago during typing this after I can find the card reader.

Honeymoon Trip to Bandung

A lot of people asked why we chose Bandung instead of Bali for honeymoon. Even the Bandung man himself. Well, Bali is so commercialized and next time I go to oceans, I want to dive. So we booked the package even before our solemnization date was confirmed.

We stayed at Arion Swiss Bel-hotel which is so wonderful. The staff are all very friendly and the room was okay and I think it was a wise choice. They even send us a fruit basket as our honeymoon gift. Even me forgot that I've mention that we are on honeymoon when I was booking.

In front of our boutique hotel

Lucky we have a supir (driver) who was good. He was very reliable and can be understood well. He knew where to go and suggested a beautiful restaurant which has the hillside overlooking Bandung city. He took us before sunset to experience the moment. Unfortunately we missed it as the day was cloudy. Anyway, the view was fantastic and the food was not bad. It was so cool and it was perfect setting for couple on honeymoon. 10 points for Irfan.

The so romantic restaurant -Sierra Cafe at Dago Paka

The shopping at Bandung is very bad for shopaholic coz it will make you go mad with shopping. There's a lot of factory outlet and there are all very very cheap. According to people all the items are original but maybe it has some defect that the factory send to the outlets. Can you imagine Louis Vuitton handbag at around RM200 only! I was going to buy it but at the end I bought LeSportSac instead coz I wanted it for so long. The LeSportSac that I saw in Malaysia was about RM200 but there I got it for RM70 only. I don't know what's the defect coz in my rough eyes, I can't find it. And I bought a lot of clothes. My regret was not buying more office shirts. I bought one only. Boleh tak. Irfan has brought us to very good FOs like Happening, Neutral. I also prefer Cascade and Heritage. Contrast to popular advices, Rumah Mode is happening but I didn't find anything I like there.

The happening Rumah Mode. Oh, that's not shopping bag from Rumah Mode.

The next day we went to Mount Tangkuban Perahu. We love the place but hate the people there. We were cheated big time. We spend almost RM300 at that place only after being cheated by these so called pity-us-we-are-just-farmers-trying-selling-something-to-support-our-family things. Irfan has warned us not to follow them but instead they were following us like vultures.

Anyway, at this place, this was the closest I've been to volcano crates. The smell was unbearable as it was smell of sulfur from the volcano. The last time the volcano erupted was in 1969 which was not long enough in my opinion. Takut jugak tetiba hari tu dier nak buat hal.

At Kawah Ratu. The biggest crate. Bahawa betul berdiri kat tepi tu...

On the way downhill of the Mount Tangkuban Perahu. Jauh okay...

Behind us is the 130C water from ground. Panas dan bau busuk plak tu..

We covered with mud that supposed to be good with the vultures being supergood to us before start selling overpriced items to us. The water at that area was around 20-30C only. Okay la... boleh celup kaki & tangan.

Oh, 1 thing in Bandung was that it has many J.Co outlet. Strangely that was the first time we ate J.Co donuts after the 1st attempt to eat it at Sunway Pyramid was failed after seeing long queues. There, it has not even has a queues. And I just found out that J.Co is an Indonesia product. No wonder Irfan was not impressed when we jakunly told him about J.Co.

The food at Bandung was quite cheap and not hard to find as it's population is majority Islam. Mosque is everywhere. You have to choose what to eat: Padang or Sundanese.

Of yes, there's another place that you should go, Pasar Baru. It's where you want to buy the traditional things in bandung - telekung, kebaya and lace. It's so cheap. I can imagine if I went with my mom. But this time I'm with a man, so the situation was different la. Oh, we were looking for cheap invitation cards for our reception when Irfan volunteer that he has a friend that do the printing job. He even gave us samples of cards to take home to choose from. It's beautiful and quite cheap. anybody interested, please call me. =)

The conclusion: the trip was great. It would be better if we can come back at later flight instead of morning flight on the 3rd day. Tak puas la... Next time I want to go again (especially when I want to change the whole wardrobe)

Superchef Part 1

Road to be superchef is in the smooth lane . 2 dishes managed to be done wonderfully.

He gave me satisfying nodded upon tasting it.

Not bad for someone who never cook before.

Haha...

So people out there, don't lose hope.

Post-honeymoon Syndrome

Starting working back after 1 and half week of holiday is pure hell. Especially if the holiday was in honeymoon mood. Starting the day was bad enough as I have to rely on people to send to work. I wish I didn’t have to trouble anybody. I hate it when people think of me as their burden. It just that starting the day with sour face would lead to more horrible feeling throughout the day. [ Naqib, you have only 1 week of my car. After that, you have to rely on others or walk to class. Just want to give lesson to you that how hard not to have your own transport. So take care of your own car carefully next time. ]

Well, these past few days were the hardest. The hatred toward THAT superior is building up faster that I can control. Feeling of hate is tiring, you know. Then when come back home, there’s a lot of things to be done as the house is not 100% completed yet. Then trying on new machine and stuff like that. This excessive usage of energy is a shock to my body after one whole week of relaxing. Worst part is I cannot take any additional supplement during my red dot week as it will disrupt the happily flow blood. So even 7 hours of sleeping won’t do any good to me. I end up sleeping anywhere I can put my head on and wake up feeling sluggish this past few days.

The thought that I’m not good enough being a wife has worsened the condition. I woke up in the middle of the night looking at him and thinking if I did anything that make him angry with me. All sort of weird thinking has gone through my head. Is the fan was directed to me only? Is he hot? Is he cold? Is he mad at me coz I slept first? Is he mad coz I fell asleep in front of tv? Is he mad at me coz I fell asleep before hanging all the clothes?

Dear hubby, I’m trying a hard as I can to be the best wife ever. I might look like I don’t perform as expected, believe me, I’m trying here. Give me some time coz my transaction might be slower than you think it would be. Peace.

3rd Day after The Day

Today is 3rd day me being a wife. Hehe. Nothing changes much yet coz we still staying with my/his parents house. Next week we will going back to Kajang and that's the time my skill as wife will be shown.

Everything was fine on that wedding night except not enough food. That was the first time we used that caterer and definitely the last time. Before this, we never had problem with not enough food. It's so embarrassing to the guests and really stressed my mom out. The caterer said that our guest was almost 300 people when we only order for 150 people. But we estimated that night the most is 200 including small kids. This is because my mom prepared 180 bunga telur but we have more then 40 left after the kenduri. And I felt more worse when the person who recommended that caterer actually perli me that I invited more people than what I ordered. Obviously the caterer had talked to her first and convinced that he was right. Shit la... I hate him. I thought he was good by the way he spoke about his experience and so on. It's all bullshittttttt!!!!! Hate him for ruing my wedding.

I really am sorry to those who didn't get the chance to eat. Even though we have bought extra food, there were still a lot of people who didn't eat that night. Especially my family. Kesian them. And also I hate those who buat lawak about the shortage of the food. Bukannye nak tolong, buat lawak lagi. Baik tak payah mengaku family!

Okay, relax mun. Btw, we're off to Bandung tomorrow for our second honeymoon. First honeymoon was yesterday at Sunway Resort Suites.

So more pictures of wedding when we'll meet Udey on Friday.

Oh, I love this picture of mine (yeah, I'm so vain).And I love this picture too.... among the 6 pictures that Udey has post.... tak tau la klau ade yg lg best.... hehe

Preview

This is a preview of what's happened last night. Stay tuned for more pictures!

Picture by Udey Ismail
& here

Just a rambling of bride-to-be

Yea... today is my 1st day of wedding leave. Seronoknya. Was vacuuming my room suddenly I remember I need to burn wedding songs cd. I need to hear first all the song and make sure that all the song is suitable for wedding. I don't want song like Avril Lavinge's Girlfriend end up playing at my wedding. So not suitable okay. And I don't want people saying stuff like 'oh this is not a wedding song'. I know people said that coz I always say that in weddings. Haha..

The lilies starting to bloom. I forgot to place them somewhere cool and left them in my room instead. Just realize it last night and immediately they placed in the toilet. According to the florist, the lilies need to bloom at lest 4-6 days. So you need to buy them early. I bought my flowers at this one flower wholesaler at Bandar Menjalara. We find a good deal as they sold 2 dozens of roses for RM14-16 only. Thay have this one big fridge that placed all the flowers. There are so many types of flower. I was impressed. The rest of flower will arrive tomorrow... Later I will list down all the shops that recommended that I've found.

Ok, better continue vacuuming my room back before supermom datang mengamuk.

Unrest thoughts

I stumbled upon a blog last night that keep me thinking the whole day today. At first I was impressed by this guy achievement in his career which he described in the blog (plus there’s a link to his resume). As I read through, I discovered that he was having affair behind his wife back. He even post his ‘girlfriend’ picture with different pose and comments.

Well, this is not a shocker to me. Growing up in the family where men ratio is bigger than women, I’m used to hear about this stuff. I was even involved in this situation when an uncle of mine brought me along to spy on my another uncle second wife. At that time I was a naïve little girl but big enough to remember the details. These few years, Raya had been different when second wife topic is a taboo when two of my uncles actually took a second wife each. My grandma was sick for more than a week after hearing that news. She has specifically told her every son that whoever who wish to have second wife must wait till she died. She said as long as she live she doesn’t stuff like this happen. Not to mention in office where mostly married men were the ones that most gatal.

So who can blame woman when they refuse to get married. Unmarried women are on the rise. They are successful and single. They choose career over marriage. What they choose has sparked fury from men. Men said that they are choosy, fussy and tak ikut sunnah Rasul la. But who can blame them when men themselves who create this unfaithfulness condition.

Okay, this is seems paradox for someone who’s going to get married in 4 days. Even though the reality is this, but I still believe in marriage. I believe if we BOTH work hard enough to sustain our relationship, we will be the happiest couple till end of our life despite all the hardness in the world. But if one failed, this matrimony will collapse easily. Yes, I’ve learned that and so did him. We are not the saint couple. We have our highs and lows in our relationship. We’ve been hurt from each other but we recovered and we learned from our mistake.

Not all marriage must end up with an affair or second wife or divorce. There are many more that are still deeply in love after 50 years of together. In fact I think there are many couple like this in the world but never been highlighted. I understand that being a Malay people always don’t like that kind of stuff. They think it’s mengada-ngada la, geli la etc. But when cases like divorces, affairs and stuff like that, they will follow throughout. Maybe we should changes this mindset. Then, without we realize it, we will follow the happiness and adopt it our life.

Easy said than done but hard work will be paid though. Let’s pray happiness to all mankind.

Called me Cik Mun... Quick before it's too late

Cik Munm... 4 more days to use this name.

After that, I'll be Puan Munm...

But I'm still Cik Ngah & maybe Cik Su too? Haha...

Am I ready to be Mrs Zainal? Only time and Zainal will tell.

Shit, now I feel so scared... Scared that I didn't be a good wife. A wife that a husband won't even think of having another wife. A wife for this life and in heaven. InsyaAllah.

It's 2008 already!

Time fly so fast and before you realize, it's new year already. I used to list down all the highlights of moi for that year. But this year there's not much to brag about. I guess when you start working, life is pretty dull right. Anyway, I can't say nothing happens at all during 2007. Let's see what had happened:

1. Zainal & me had our 5th anniversary already!
2. And finally both of us ready to move to next level. But that's this year story.
3. I was transferred to new department with supposedly more experience and lebih hebat boss but sadly not in managerial area.
4. Oh yes, my mom & dad finally agreed to let me live at my own.
5. Well, that's it for 2007. Ha... sikit je compare to 2006.

Another exciting thing about new year is new year resolutions! It was made to see how good are you when you promise yourself with something. And of course nobody actually manage to follow ALL their resolutions, right. But this year my resolution is different. Not so different than last year's but, this year I got someone whose resolution is to make sure my resolution is achieved. Waaaaaaahhhh.... He even has started it today. Like no more driving when going to dinner and somemore paksa orang jalan naik bukit plak tu... Haiya... Next time, keep your resolution to yourself. You never know what people around you are capable of. Hehe.

This year there's a bit shortage of calenders and diaries. No more bundle of calenders to choose from. But I got a calender specially posted from Denmark.... Wah... Feel really honored to receive that from a president of top company. I thought he would just kept my card just like everyone else. Couldn't believe he actually send a calender & season's greeting card with it. The downside of that calender is there's no public holidays of Malaysia and full of 'GMP question of the day'. God, I feel so nerdy by having that calender. Takpe la, next time I can be GMP trainer plak.. Haha.. wishful thinking.

Oh, one of the resolution is to stop talking crap and I already break my resolution on the 2nd day of new year... Crap.

Well everybody.... Happy New Year 2008!

All you need is a Supermom

Who needs wedding planner if you have a supermom? Supermom has the ability to organize a beautiful wedding to her daughter within the tight budget. Instead of pay people to do it, she does it all with help from other members of the family. What interesting about her that she managed to convince everybody why they have to help even thought that’s not their wedding.

Supermom is come is many types and sizes. I am glad to have one. She is tough, restless, creative and patient. She knows what best for her daughter and yet know how to implement that with the sometimes-weird-and-crazy taste of her daughter whiningly wants.

Last week was without doubt that the most tiring week even though it’s my holiday. Everyday was filled with different task for the wedding. From choosing flower in freezing huge cabin-size refrigerator, painting house and my room, sending invitation cards to relatives (plus eating at each house), dismantle and assemble back together a cabinet, to joining the last minute shopping crowd, I have done it all. From morning to night, my supermom has a tight schedule for me (and others). Lastly, I asked for a day off on Christmas day. Of course my supermom would approved my application but does she stops working when I’m stop? No… She maintained her cleaning & decorating momentum even though I’ve stop long before.

This weekend is going to be a surprise schedule. I still didn’t know what I have to do yet as all the important stuff has been done. Wah, nak balik rumah pun rasa takut. I can’t imagine in another 2 weeks, the pressure will be bigger and oh God, let’s not talk about it okay.

Oh, did I mention that my supermom did herself every single bunga telur for the guests and extra special bunga paha? That’s roughly around 250 pieces and another 450 gold bunga telur for the kenduri mid next year. Previously during my brother’s wedding, she managed to do almost 1000 pieces of that. Seriously, she ought to open a shop someday. Haha..

Getting married is so tiresome. But I can’t complain, can I. Coz I want it. So I take this opportunity to be closer to my mom, having that mother-daughter moment that I missed out before and going to miss after I get married.

Thank you mak. You are my supermom. I don’t know what happen to me if I don’t have you. You are the best mother ever.

Al-Fatihah

Yesterday at 12pm, we received a bad news. My dearest uncle had passed away at 11am in his sleep. It a shock to all of us.

I just couldn't comprehend the news yet. But when I saw his calm face despite his hardship throughout his life, I finally accepted he's gone forever.

I wasn't THAT close to him but he was one of the uncle that always come to my house and went to holiday together. So he'll be missed tremendously.

Please my friends, take a moment of your busy schedule and sedekah him al-Fatihah...

Al-Fatihah...

Ayah Din, you will always be in our heart.

The Wedding Invitation

When you are planning for something, time flies so fast. Before you realize, you event is coming closer than you think. Although you are excited about the event, you also need to rush for everything single thing that need to be taken care of. Seriously banyak benda okay...

The one thing that need to have during a wedding is invitation cards. I don't know if people have invitation card for akad nikah, but I have. I think it's quite important since open house pun ada invitation card, ni kan pulak your own wedding. In a wedding, akad nikah is the main part while reception is the second part of it. I mean akad nikah la when you are officially married.

My idea of perfect akad nikah invitation card would be just a piece of card, something like a postcard. Anything fancier than that considered too much for akad nikah. And for me, it shouldn't have map to my house. Because if you don't know how to come to my house, you are definitely not in the list of 'families, neighbours & very close friends'. So the purpose of the invitation card is to tell when is the event. Other than that, they should know about it already.

So I went hunting for my 'perfect' akad nikah invitation card. Apparently there are not many card that like a postcard kind of thing. Then I found this wedding card in Bangi that has the card of my criteria. But, (there's always has but) for 100 pieces or less, they quote me RM2.60 and if 500 pieces and above, they quote me RM1. WTH? And I don't think the card worth RM2.60. If RM1, yes la.

Then suddenly I have an idea (actually, it was that shop's idea. hehe). Why don't I make my own card? Since I love this paper craft thingie. I asked uncle google for idea and finally I discovered that if we print on vellum paper, we can save a lot of ink. Vellum paper is a thin paper that look like tracing paper. So when you print, you can set your printer to draft mode and faster printing mode (it will use less ink). Since it's thin paper, it takes longer time if you use normal mode, but if you change the mode, it will dry faster.

But I couldn't find vellum paper since the uncle google said that vellum paper can be found in Jalan Pasar or near that and I don't have time to go there, so I just bought tracing paper. It's cheaper and I think it works as good as vellum paper. (when I compare la).

Then I bought other materials to make my card & envelope. At the same time, Zainal helped me as my pemotong kertas and voila! my cards is finished (actually I got few cards to go). I make 100 of them and this is exclusively for those who are invited to my akad nikah. The best part of printing of your own wedding invitation is, you got to print for invitees name on the card, making it very personal. And you can choice your own font. Not like the usual font you always find on wedding invitations. Hehe...

Anyway, this is my card...

My precious akad nikah invitation

And this cutie envelope...

The best part of this, it costs around RM0.60 only per card!

So anybody wants to order from me? (this could be my part time business... hehe)

Renewing passport

Today I renew my passport. What's so exciting about renewing your passport? Nothing except the fact that you have diarrhea and you cannot go to toilet as the Immigration Office has this loud and clear notice saying 'Nombor yang terlepas tidak akan dipanggil semula'. Waaa.... Only God knows how torturing that situation. Lucky I have my photo taken ages ago. If I have to take my picture this morning, for next 5 years, I have to look at my muka-tahan-berak in the passport every time I go overseas.

The worst part was that there are 34 people in front of me before my turn. After failing to force me to go to toilet by shitting, my body resorted to next stage, feeling like vomiting. For some time I hold that vomiting feeling and finally my body give final ultimatum, feeling like going to pass out, you know macam nak pitam punya rase. Yeay, I know how feeling-nak-pitam felt like coz I used to pitam few times during my schooling days. So THAT feeling was there when there were 2 numbers in front of me. I used my first aid knowledge that wasn't much by putting my head down between my legs to let the blood move around the brain. I felt better for awhile and then my number was called.

I have to act fine in front of the immigration officer and started asking weird question like is Bangkok safe to go or something like that. Haha. The process was like few minutes and I'm done. Well, not quite. I have to wait for another counter for payment. Then suddenly a woman called me and told me that one button of my blouse was terbuka. Wah.... malu giler!!!! Is that why the immigration officer was smiling at me? I thought they have actually follow their Cepat, Mesra & Tegas (is it correct? Ape2 la) motto. It must has opened when I was putting my head down.

After that I ran to the nearest toilet. Not that I was totally embarrassed and wanted to hide (I got the feeling not many people saw that) but just to make sure whatever that desperately need to go out just now, go out.

I come back in and surprised I was just 2 numbers away from my number. Just a few minutes, my number was called and that's it. The whole process was finished. Now I just wait for next 2 hours and the new passport is ready. But of course la kan in my current position I won't wait there for 2 hours. I might have multiple pitam there. Haha. Maybe I just pick it up on Monday.

In case you want to know (I know you don't care but I want to tell jugak) I'm going to Bangkok for some practical seminar that my ex-boss recommended me to go (now you see why I really really want to work under him?) on early December. I just find out last week that my passport just expired last month. That's explained the rushing to renew my passport.

Just a note, the whole process of making new passport is quite fast compare 5 years ago. Not bad la. I arrived there at 8.20am and around 9.45am, I was in my car going back home already. Just 1 advice: get ready with all documents required la... kalau tak, lambat jugak.

Ps: Sorry sayang, pasal this when-i-need-to-do-something-important-i-always-some-disease-at-that-moment-happen. I don't do it intentionally just to piss you off (I have other ways to do that. Hehe). =)

Pss: Do you realized that lately I always have diarrhea? What's wrong with my stomach? Become over sensitive now? Haiya.

Few happy days

Despite of the one big problem that been hanging around last week (that's explain the last post) I actually kind of happy this few days. (Is it because my boss was on leave for Deepavali? Hehe).

The happy day started last Thursday (the Deepavali holiday) when I was supposed to come to work just because a Thai engineer didn't realize that it was holiday in Malaysia and he came to give qualification to newly installed machine. I was forced, literally, to be presented there too. Fortunately (or unfortunately, depend which angle you are looking at) I was having diarrhea that morning. I was ready to go to office but I end up at the toilet the whole morning. In the afternoon I was okay and Zainal brought me jalan-jalan and lunch at Pak Lang. No need to work on public holiday. Phewww...

On Friday, I was having this crazy idea of going to KLCC just to meet Zainal where he's working part time there. Initially he was reluctant to let me come as I was planning to take Komuter & LRT to KLCC. But I was so determined to come and he finally agreed to let me come. I end up driving to KLCC despite not knowing the way to KLCC. Not bad kan. I personally love driving to unknown place. It 's like adventure, you have to be alert and every single turn you take, you learn about a new place. But when you ask me to drive to my usual route, I become malas giler.

Arriving at KLCC, I took the opportunity to buy few items for my do-it-yourself wedding invitation project. Exclusively for those who are invited to my majlis akad nikah later. I was so excited about this project because paper craft is my favourite. I used to make raya card every year to Zainal using different kind of things that I can find around my house; from box to coconut leaves. But this year I didn't do it coz maybe tired after working? Cheez... I'm turning to boring old woman. Haha.

Then at 8.30pm, Zainal asked me to come to KL Convention Centre to watch Chicago The Musical. He sneaked me inside and let me seat at the RM250 place. Wow... bila lagi nak merasa kan. This was the first time I watch Broadway musical theatre. It was really really good. I'm so impressed with them and it was very entertaining. Compare to Malaysia theatre, we a bit far behind. Not so much, but can be improved. (Cakap macam pengkritik seni pulak. Padahal ape pun tak tahu...hahahah). But I didn't watch till the end as I was so hungry and Zainal was going back after finishing his job at 10pm. That night, Sultan Perak and his cucuanda-cucuanda were there too. Basicly, I watched theatre with a King la. Hehe.

Saturday was nothing but was worried about Zainal going into the city as there was a demonstration by Bersih all over the place. He called me saying that he was stuck at LRT station since FRU wouldn't let them go out of that Masjid Jamek station. So he has to take train to Bandaraya and walked from there to KLCC. Pity him. Pity him again for terkena tempias gas pemedih mata dari polis when he wasn't one of the demonstration people. Mengusahkan betul la orang-orang ini.

Finally Sunday came and I have the news that I'm waiting for so long. And finally I'm going to announce it here. We are going to get married on 19 January 2008 / 10 Muharram 1429 H. It just a small akad nikah , just for families & neighbours. The kenduri maybe will be held in the middle of the year.

Suddenly I realized something. Gosh, there's a lot of things need to be done.... But I don't mind. And I can't wait! =)

I don't care anymore

Artist: Nathan Brubaker

I don't care anymore

I don't care to make it happen
I don't care if just to let it go

I just don't understand why it's so hard
I just don't understand what's wrong to be doing good

I don't care about your excuses
I don't care about your theories

The moment I want to do something good
World turn upside down as if I'm turning to devil

Or is it evil in the world is sought after than the goods?

I don't care anymore
If they refuse it, I'm doing my way
I'm staying this way
And let them have my sins.

I rather die of love than live without love

Nothing comes easy in this life. In search of happiness, we have to work hard to achieve it. Doesn't matter what happiness means to you - money, love or freedom, they don't come easily. One have to struggle and fight to gain it.

When the happiness you seek has finally achieved, it makes you realize how much it means to you. You won't simply loss what you already have and your appreciation towards it grow. But to get to the destination, sweats and tears become you best friend.

Who said love comes easily. The course of true love never did run smooth was indeed correct. We thought after years of courtship things would be easy. There would never be an easy route for every love. Love always is threaten by money and other people. Love always has to back off when these 2 have power.

But I know one thing. Nobody can take my love away from me. I will always fight for my love. I might be weak and easily bullied, but when somebody mess up with my love, I give a fight. I don't care who they are, but nothing going to keep me apart from my love. Even if I have to lose my face, I know being with someone you love is better than living with other's expectation.

If I won't give up, you won't give up too, right? I know we can make it until the last breath we take.

Update

A wedding is on the way. Watch this space for more updates.

Hehe.

Keep in touch my friends

During many phases of our life, we encountered a lot of people that some of them become our friends. If we wanted to collect all the people that we called friends, I'm sure all of us have at least 100 friends. And that's a minimum numbers. But how many of them that you actually know what's going on with their life right now. How many that you actually keep in touch.

My biggest weakness is keeping in touch with old friends. The minute I stop seeing them, that's the time I stop keeping in touch. It's not that I forgot about them, it just that I afraid they don't remember me and I have this ideas that I might not know what to talk about with them. Only friends from my secondary school are the one that I keep in touch. And that one only happened when we are going to meet up for some occasion.

I felt bad about it you know. Sometimes my friends send messages asking how am I doing but most of the time I won't reply. I kept thinking that if I reply this message, what should I said next. At the end, I don't reply at all.

There were times I kept thinking about all the friends I have especially the ones that I was close with before. I miss all of them. I remember everything about every moments we spend together and I wish I can go back to that time.

There was one night I dreamed about all the close friends I encountered from primary schools to university. Everyone of them has special impact on me. God, I really miss them all.

I know nobody actually read this but to all my friends out there, from SRKSJ, SMKSJ, Asasi, FKUM to Marcus Evans, I wish I become nicer when you keep in touch but sometimes I don't know what to react when you try to keep in touch with me, I end up become some kind of snob. I'm so sorry.

God, I really miss everybody. Some I don't even know where they are. Some I still can contact them by friendster.

Therefore, please be nice to your friends. They are one of the precious thing in life and making life worth living.

Eid Fitr 2007

To all Muslimeen & Mualimat, I would like to wish Happy Eid Fitr.

Priceless moment during Raya that I will miss if it's not celebrated in Muar:

1. Catching up with everybody's life
2. Queuing for toilet in the morning
3. Play fireworks
4. Eavesdropping aunties gossiping
   
5. Duit raya giving session
   
6. and the best part is photographing session!!

One small happy family

One big happy family!

I love Raya!!

ps: This year I still get duit raya... Thanks to all my uncles who still don't realize that I'm working already... hehe

I felt like I'm drowning in the ocean..

...So somebody take me away.

Seriously, I am…

I requested for a transfer but was rejected and asked to wait till end of the year to see how things change. B U L L S H I T

How things will get changed? I still have the image of stabbing him everyday when I come to work. How that supposed to help me improve at the end of the year. How he going to improve anything if he’s the one who disappear during working hours and appear 20 minutes before works end and pretend working till late. If there’s anything that needs to be re-engineered, it’s us.

Work sucks, my social life sucker. Even my bf think he spend so much time with me. How couldn’t I? He IS my social life. Other than that, NONE.

I’m really looking forward to Raya coz Raya means open house. Open house means meeting my friends. Which means my social life department will increase the productivity. Unlike now, which is at the level of none.

And Raya means holiday. At least, I can rest my mind of plotting a murder for a week.

Ramadhan is going to left us again

I cannot believe it that Ramadhan is left another 5 more days. And I don't write anything about this holy month. And today is the first day I'm not fasting.

I missed fasting at Mecca & Medina. It was the most wonderful experience that will never ever felt at any other place. Alhamdulillah I have experienced it twice.

The feeling of you with other thousands of people praying with the imam's voice reciting the Quran verses was so calming. Seriously I tried to describe here but I found it very hard to tell the real feeling and I just has to deleted the sentences again.

When can I go back there again. Before this the fasting month was in winter so it was quite cold in Mecca and very cold in Medina. Now the Ramadhan is starting to come near the summer, so I'm not sure if it's be any different there.

One thing I learned most while fasting there is that everybody is equal. You and the rest of people there gets the same space to worship Allah. It just that how lucky (or how early) you are there. In a place hundred of thousands people at the same place, a tiny place that you can stand, sit and maybe sujud is a luxury already. You tend to not being fussy where you can pray. That's why sometimes I get pissed off with people in Malaysia who mengada-ngada when in mosque.

Anyway, if I have the money to do umrah again, I will definitely going on Ramadhan. And I'm hoping this time around I will come with a husband and that will be more meaningful. =)

Stress-o-rama

I just wish that I had the guts to send the ‘letter’ even though I have no another job to back up. The stress is building up and my asthma who has left me at least 5 years, suddenly happily migrate in my lung again. And I think he gonna stay that a quite some time. He was going to left me again, but he, who only ‘visit’ me when I really really really stress, chose to stay since that’s the way I am now.

My history of asthma went back when I was small. During the primary school years, it was like the most productive time. I got it almost every month. But when I was small, it’s usually because of food and environment. When I was in upper secondary school, it was rarely infected. After that, it was like almost none. It felt like it’s coming, but early intervention has stopped it. Usually when I was damn stress (when even migraine can’t handle the powerfulness of the stress). Now, I guess the situation has returned. I was ok after MC 2 days. But returning the job I hate, listening to the voice I hate, watching the face I hate, I sensed that my asthma is coming back. Sigh…

My whole point is not about my asthma but how stress I am now. I miss the first few months of my job. It was exciting and I learnt a lot. But now, everything turned like hell. The funny part is, all my colleague are supporting my by telling me the worst story about that ‘guy’ when they were under them. Hahaha… It’s like everybody in the company knows about it. Haha…

Hmmm…. Anybody have any job to give me? I’m willing to learn new things. I mean what I’m right now is way far from what my degree stated. I can adapt to environments but I can’t adapt to s****d boss. Especially when he blamed me for his all mistakes and make me look stupid in front of people. Do you think I’m going far if the senior boss looks at me as an useless worker?

Of Quality, Environment, Health and Safety

Trying to distract myself from the work that I dislike, I joined extra-curricular at my workplace. Since my friend asked me if I want to join her committee, I just agree. So here am I in the Quality & EHS (Environment, Health and Safety) Awareness Committee. I guess this is the best committee to join. With friendly and surprisingly all women committee, I felt like am a part of team.

I joined at the perfect timing as they preparing for Q & EHS Week 2007. It was held earlier this month and I proudly said, I contribute quite a lot. Hehe... My friend and I was in charge of designing the banner, banting, mug and T-shirt. I'm so happy to do the designing thing coz that what I really like to do. I like art but never given an opportunity to expand it.

Anyway, that week was hectic. And the worst part is, I was down with fever. Luckily I was only fully involved on Wednesday for GMP game and Monday the week after that for closing. But on Friday I realized that I have signed up for Safety Hunt (it's treasure hunt with different name). I tried to find substitute coz I don't think I well enough to join a hunt but nobody wanted to. So I joined je la since I already promised my team.

There I was on Saturday morning cracking my head with all my teammates while ignoring my health for a while. In blazing hot sun I stood looking for answers. But... it was not useless. We won 2nd place... wooohhooo.... I can't believe it. We won a hamper and RM300. Berbaloi bangun awal-awal.

My team: Me, Kak Entan from HR and Siew Lei from QA.

The Winning Team =)

So on Monday, I forced myself to come to work because it's the closing ceremony for that week. And of course the prize giving ceremony for the Safety Hunt. I came half day only and because I'm in the committee, I have to help out. I end out become sicker.

Me & the committee singing our heart out ...hhehe..

So the next 2 days, I was on medical leave because my fever has turned to asthma attacks. Geezzz... I guess the objective of Q & EHS week for healthy life was not working for me.... Hahahaha...

The last smile before I was driven home and give 2 days of MC....

Long Merdeka Weekend

The weekend started with 30 minutes bang of firework. The longest time I ever saw in my life. 30 minutes of ooohhss and aaahhs and then 2 hours of traffic jam. Was forcing myself not to fall asleep just to teman zainal driving. (and he blackmailed me to left me in the car in dengkil if I felt asleep). What I do to stay awake? Singing songs with the radio and doing stupid stuff until at 1 point zainal asked me to sleep coz he can't handle my psychoness. Nasib lar. I made some observation also that night. Kekentalan seorang ayah membawa keluarga menonton fireworks and end up in the 2 hours jam while all the family members were happily sleeping in different funny position in the car. And then I remember my dad. I always sleep whenever we went more than 1.5 hours trip. Kesian my dad kena drive.

I missed the merdeka perarakan this year. I meant to watch it (on TV of course). Just want to see what was UEM uniform this year. Since I'm part of it now, so mesti ambil tahu! Was sleeping till noon. That evening I made some decision that until now I'm not sure it's the correct one or just pure waste of money. I'm still confused.....Waaaa...

Anyway, Nadhirah got engaged yesterday and also her birthday. What a wonderful time to get engaged right. She looked gorgeous in orange. Most of all, I love the tepung pelita. Sedaaapp...

At the end, this weekend can be considered well filled in and lots of sleeping (which is great, according to me). Tomorrow going to start another hectic working week coz the EHS Week is on and I'm part of it and... I got presentation on Friday which I haven't done anything yet. Sigh...

(Next time will try to write something interesting than my life)

Malaysia International Firework Competition 07

Since blogger has now added video viewer, I want to add my first video: The International Firework Competition at Putrajaya. This is team Global.

I love fireworks... If their not expensive, I might have one during my wedding.... hahaaha....
I will go to Putrajaya again for the merdeka day & the grand finale which is 2 sept. They are very beautiful. I wish somebody wants to give give me free tickets to watch it at PICC. Then the true formation can be clearly seen. The ticket a bit pricey though. RM 38.40.... hmmm... anybody? Hehhehee.... here's one video of that night fireworks. ( Was thinking of posting 2 videos but nak upload 1 video pun dah ages, so 1 is enough la)....

OK.......after waiting for almost half hour, blogger happily announced that 'there's some error in uploading your video and please contact bla bla bla'............

Arrrggghhh.... sorry guys, maybe next time. I need to sleep.

There's a place in hell for bosses

It's Sunday night and I dread tomorrow. I hate Monday morning coz I have to carry all the stuff back to Kajang. At the end of the week, I drag back all my stuff to my home. I have been doing that for almost 6 years now since Asasi. I can plan my whole week clothing in 10 minutes with packing. At one point, I wish I can stop all this and settle at one place.

Monday morning means the starting of another 1 hell working week. I never complained in my blog about my job but today, I just have to let it go. I hate my job. Really really hate. Every time a person resigns, I felt envy. I wish I can do that. This hatred started when I have to change department and superior. I like the previous superior and still like. But the current one just piss me off.

The only thing that keep me is the colleagues and my previous superior that was so supportive, friendly, caring and we are like one big family. Which obviously exclude my boss.

You know if you are stress, your body immune is weaken right. That's what happening to me. I easily get fever and my sinus has worsen. It felt like I'm the sickest person ever. The ultimate stress cause is that I sit just behind my boss. Should I say that we are cubicle neighbour. All he has to do is turn around and call me. Damn it. I hate it!!!

10 Things I hate About You:
10. I hate the way you always think that you are the best but every suggestion you give always fail
9. I hate the way you push people to do your work fast but you will put aside when we give it to you
8. I hate that the fact that you never trust and listen what I said. Do you think I'm stupid?
7. I hate the way your ringtones sound coz it just so irritating
6. I hate the way you never satisfy in everything I do
5. I hate the way you want to show you are the best and at the end you force me to do it
4. I hate the way you kedekut ilmu just because you scared that that person become better than you
3. I hate the way you think you know all but I know you don't know
2. I hate the way to all not satisfy with EVERYTHING but you never want to go to meeting to speak up your opinion.
1. I just hate you when you ask me to do things that won't be used. It a waste of my time and energy!!!!!!
0. I hate it when you purposely didn't come on the day that have meeting with senior manager and I have to replace you.

All time obsession: scuba diving

Scuba diving is something I really really want to experience and at the same time obtain the Open Water PADI license. This obsession has started few years ago and it never faded away. So this is not hangat-hangat tahi ayam kind of thing.

My first plan was to get the license after graduating which are few months before I get a job. But no money la plak. Scuba diving is not a cheap hobby. You need at least RM 1400 to get the license. So the plan was abandoned. But the passion of learning scuba is still burning that I went to this one scuba shop in Bangi just to look around. But that one is quite expensive. Plus the guy that is quite annoying that he sms me a lot of time to make me join their class. They charged you RM1500 for whole package. So the plan was abandoned again.

So last 2 weeks, my boss asked me if I wanted to try an introductory class for scuba diving which cost RM60 only. I said why not, I mean it’s better to try one day than never try at all. So last week, I took half day leave and when to the Cheras with my boss and Zainal to experience scuba diving.

After that 1 day course, all I can said is WOW… It’s not that hard at all. I mean, I can swim down to 10 feet and stay underwater for 30 minutes. Of course I’m not perfect yet. I’m still out of balance, I still don’t know how to prevent getting dry throat and few other stuff but for someone who only using that SCUBA equipment for 1 hour, that was big achievement. (and same goes to Zainal and my boss… in fact my boss looks so natural, as if he has dived before. To tell the truth, I was kinda worst among the 3 people there… heheh).

That place runs by Major Kee who has own swimming pool and all the equipment situated in Cheras. The whole package is RM 699 (not including trip to Redang which is cost another RM400). This is the cheapest so far I have come through. It’s including 5 sessions and full use of the swimming pool and equipment. Means that even after that 5 sessions, you still come to that place and use all the equipment for free (no limited time). So if you think you need 10 more time to practice, just go there. It’s only applicable before you get the license la.

I want to join!!!… Mak even has approved (coz she knows that I’ve been bugging her for years) and also approve to sponsor 1/3 of the expenses (I don’t even asked her!). So right now, my path is clear. I’m just waiting for Zainal to make up his mind. Huhu…

Last night, I met Copot (who already has advanced license and aiming to get Divemaster license. Damn, I’m so jealous) and asked him everything about scuba. He showed his dive trip pictures and I’m so want to do that too… Tension la Copot… All I can think today is scuba diving. (lagi2 kena kerja hari Sabtu ni).

On second thought, it’s already raining season right now. Furthermore, middle of next month is already Ramadhan, then Raya. After Raya, the monsoon season starts in east coast. If I want to wait for end of monsoon season, then I have to wait till March… Waaa… that’s a long time to go… I already have my heart for scuba that I restrain myself buying new handphone even though Nokia 6110 Nagivator looks alluring.

So Zainal… cepat make up your mind!!

When working on Saturday

My company has declared 4 days of mass vacation during Raya. It was divided into 2 days before Raya and 2 days after Raya. However, we have to replace our leave on Saturdays. The replacement started today. Of all the days, TODAY… What’s so significant is today? Today is the release of Harry Potter final book!! And I obviously has booked it earlier at MPH. I was so excited to read the book after being disappointed by the latest Harry Potter film that I watched last week. Seriously, is this the same guy who directed the first Harry Potter film? Coz both was sucks. I know it’s hard to squeeze all the story in the Kamus Dewan thick Harry Potter book into 2 hours of movie, but give the film some credit la. Especially the part when Sirius Black died. He’s the only family that Harry Potter has and put la some emotion when Black died. Make it longer the scene to let the audience feel the loss and sorrow that Potter felt. But there’s nothing to be felt. Trust me, I can cried when anybody died in movies if given the right dose of emotion (I cried watching Four Brothers, 300 and all the action movie where they have somebody died. It’s normal ok. It showed that I have feeling and passionate about life. Huh).

Anyway, here I am stuck in the office doing nothing progressive cause my brain didn’t program to work on Saturdays. But fear not, I already applied for half day leave and after this I can rush to Mid Valley to collect my book with Zainal. Oh, he also one of the victim that couldn’t collect his book because he has to wait for me. Hehe…

I have this idea that guys don’t like to read books. Well most of the guys I know at least. Btw, magazine is not consider a book ok. Let’s be fair la, there are some girls who don’t read books too la. But not as many as guys la kan. However, if the guy read Harry Potter books only, it would meant a lot to me already. Because, Harry Potter has this ability to make want to know more when you read it. If you want to read Harry Potter to sleep you off, you make a grave mistake. Instead you will stay up all night long to finish up that book. This was not only happened to me only but few people I know. But there was a rare case that that person actually didn’t finish up a chapter and fell asleep and just stop reading that book It’s either she doesn’t understand English or she just doesn’t understand English. That’s the only reason I can’t think of. Oh yeah, maybe she can’t read.

Maybe I should do book review after I finish up reading that book. And other books too. Yup, like the travel tips I did. That’s remind me a book that I really recommend to all. Oh, that would be in the next post.

Accepting oneself

You always heard people said that 'I don't care what people say about me as long as I'm happy'. That's a good principle as long as you don't make stupid stuff that make other people's life miserable. But that principle is only true only and if only it's apply to other people that you don't know.

When it comes to someone that you need to get approval with like your boss, your parents and your future mother-in-law, that principle might not be suitable. Especially your future mother-in-law la kan. Coz usually father-in-law is not so fussy like woman right.

Then your 'does-she-approve-me-if-I....' would took place. Questions like

1. Does she really want to let his youngest son to marry me?
2. Does she approve me if I don't know how to cook (the fact that his son is a better cook than me)?
3. Does she think that I suitable for his youngest son & would take care of him like she did?
4. Does she want a girl like me?
5. Do I fit all the specifications that she had in mind?
6. Will I be her best daughter-in-law ever?
7. Does she mind if I wake up late on weekends (weekends je)?
8. Does she think that I can produce cute grandsons and granddaughters for her?
9. Does she accept the way I am (coz that would a lot of areas that I need to rework, reprocess and re-engineer to improve myself, considering my current position)?
   
10. Does she accept her daughter-in-law wearing Optimus Prime mask saying 'This is Optimus Prime' with no purpose basis (on second thought, does she really want a Optimus Prime obsessed girl with deep knowledge of Ultraman and thinks anime character can be soo handsome (but his son is the most handsome of all time, hands down))?

Ok... I'm being paranoid here. At the end, she just want his youngest son to be happy and loved right. I'm sure he feels happy and feel loved right now, right.

The bottom line is, we always want approval from others. Maybe not from all the people (unless you are running for presidency) but to those that close and important to us, we seek their approval unconsciously. We need to be accepted by the way we are to feel that we are someone in this world and part of this world. Even one person is enough to give us some confidence. But to find someone that really accepts us the way we are is the hardest part. Sometimes even family just won't recognize our true self especially if we are different from the others. Therefore, always cherish people that care and accept you in their life.